ahhhhh...

just stopping by to say...

2008-09-18T17:36:00.003+08:00

ohkay. I pretty much haven't written in this blog lately because, well, I now prefer my lj over this one. I know. I'm sorry. It's just that it's more fun to post with lj -- the layouts, the format... plus the fact that you don't have to have a google account to have one. so... if you ended up with this blog, you should be heading over to this one. <--- it's clickable! Ü

my throat is starting to sore

2008-08-16T17:29:00.000+08:00

ok. so i've just come home from my "training", and again, i've talked on and on and on... i swear, next week, i'll just let them do all the talking.

anyway... i recall posting earlier about having my trainees start their own blogs... i am kinda waiting for them to email me their urls, so i could check them out. i've actually instructed them to make an entry everyday, so that they could practice writing in english. it's a pretty good idea, if i must say so myself. haha.

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i'm sure everybody knows moymoy palaboy already. and i made a discovery today, thanks to mel. they're going to be a regular feature on bubble gang! amazing. from youtube to bubble gang. that's a pretty big feat! and they're really funny! you'll never expect that moymoy (the guy with the shorter hair) is actually a pretty good singer!

if you haven't seen any of their youtube videos yet, check them out: www.youtube.com/users/moymoypalaboy or just type in moymoy palaboy in the search box. have i said they're really funny?

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i'm cutting this short. i can't think of anything more to post here. maybe later. hehe

it's going to be a quiet night

2008-08-15T19:31:00.002+08:00

it's my second post of the day... mainly because tonight, we have no cable reception, hence, no tv. boooo. i already called skycable, mainly to the insistence of my mom (as if i'm the only one who can dial a phone in the whole household), and they said that they still don't know what the heck is wrong with the cable reception and they have no frickin' idea why there is such a thing as a signal interruption in our area. and the guy said that if it's a minor problem, it would probably take around 4 - 6 hours of no tv, but if it's a major problem then it's probably around 8 hours of no tv.

i guess my mom won't be seeing buboy and vice ganda on the singing bee tonight. either that's a good thing or a bad thing. good for me, bad for them maybe, or the other way around... all i know is as long as there's no power interruption, i'm good. Ü

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so tomorrow is another saturday... and another training day for me. it actually slipped my mind that i have a training slated for tomorrow and i didn't have the hand outs and exercises prepared or anything. but then again, this is the third batch already so i would love to assume that the ever so wonderful assistant of mine thought of preparing the handouts and the exercises without me telling her what the heck those are.

of course, one can only dream...

although i've said (or typed) earlier that the training slipped my mind, another idea popped into my head for the said training... i figured i could have them practice writing in english more (it is an english proficiency training) by writing in a blog! and i'm going to force them to sign up with blogger so i could comment on their posts... *insert evil laugh*

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speaking of blogs... i know i have an account with livejournal and tabulas, but i seem to have forgotten my passwords! oh well... i guess i have to just click that magical button that says forgot your password? and hopefully that the email account i used is still active... heehee

so i tried to log in to livejournal and what do you know? i did forget my password... but i still do have my account there... hah Ü

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there's another project that i'm probably going to do for the oh-so-beloved (yeah, i was sarcastic) company... and it's re-designing their webpage. and i must say, that it really, really NEEDS redesigning. have you seen it? here's a link: http://www.trigonmgt.com/

see what i'm talking about? but i need ideas. anyone?

totally unacceptable

2008-08-15T18:20:00.002+08:00

... I just finished reading the comics page on Yahoo!news and went back to the news homepage, right? Lo and behold, there's this link to an article on the latest Harry Potter film entitled "Poof! Next `Harry Potter' flick moves to summer". I clicked on it instantly thinking that maybe Harry Potter and the Half - Blood Prince will be moved to release earlier than November 21st of this year. But noooooooo!!! Warner Bros. execs say that they're moving it for release summer NEXT YEAR!

are they out of their frickin' minds??? I am totally expecting a lot of hate mail and violent reactions from the millions of fans around the world.

it would've been perfectly acceptable if they gave out a valid reason such as the film won't make the Nov. 21 deadline. Really, it would've been. However, the reason they gave is really, really cr**py. The reason? They expect that they want to take advantage of the summer months... in short, they just want a bigger income, expecting that Harry Potter and the Half - Blood Prince will draw in more $$$ in its opening weekend in the summer as opposed to opening in Nov. 21. what the heck?!

read the story for yourself here: http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20080814/ap_on_en_mo/film_harry_potter;_ylt=Aok41RKI3noyXNIKftN0NF6s0NUE

and another related story:
http://news.yahoo.com/s/eonline/20080814/en_movies_eo/23875;_ylt=Aol3Qt.hoWgqw7tI71OF1fCmG78C

And to think I was so looking forward to watch this!!!!!

the incident in the bathroom

2008-08-13T22:30:00.002+08:00

we (that's kristy, ian and me) overnighted in my newly blessed unit, right? everything was going on peachy until i decided to take a bath...

i was taking my dandy time showering, right? and after my entire shower, nothing happens -- everything's cool... then when i decided that i want to get out of the *darn* shower enclosure that glass sliding door decided to be a big KSP. this is what happened:

i slid the door open, ever so carefully, then just as the handle touches the stationary glass part of the enclosure, the glass in the sliding door decided to SHATTER IN A GAJILLION PIECES. so i stood there for about a nanosecond, dumbfounded.

the first shower i take in my newly blessed condo and the glass door shatters.

this is not good.

another year...

2008-08-13T20:54:00.008+08:00

i had my condo unit blessing last saturday and i celebrated my birthday with that also... para tipid. hehehe...

i actually found it funny because my mom was the one who's so uptight with the "event" and she was the one who was fussing with showing everybody every inch of the unit. it's a small one bedroom unit there's no need to show everybody even the bathroom. gosh. ma, chill.

we had to have the unit blessed with just 6 guests (as opposed to the 16 people who I was expecting to come) - excluding me and my mom - because the priest was very, very anxious to return to his parish to celebrate the anticipated mass. baka daw magalit yung mga general na parokyano niya. anyway, majority arrived about a minute after the priest left. ganda ng timing, ano? but we had to wait about an hour 'cause the reservation was for 7pm...

dinner was at abe's (where good friends dine) where the food was absotively posolutely filling!! we had our fill of sinuteng baby squid, squid tactics, sinigang na tiyan ng bangus sa bayabas (what a mouthful!), lechon cubano, pinakbet, binukadkad na pla pla... dessert was my favorite part... although the main courses left little room for dessert.. heehee

[can i just say na ang weird ng layouting ng blogger?]

we had to go for a little walk after dinner at bonifacio high street to let the food go down for the rest of the night... Ü and we had to wait a while for my mom to blow out the candles for my shockingly *pink* birthday cake. yep, it's pink. of all the colors...

after my mom, aunt and uncle left, it was time for the *real* party to begin... haha! i think that i'd be opening a club/bar & restaurant anytime in the near future... we made the following cocktails:

margarita denmark orgasm (it's just a name, believe me)

mojito

tequila sunrise

sapphire martini daiquiri (yung hawak ko)

black russian

poor man's martini

vodka-sprite with grenadine syrup

vodka-sprite with blue curacao

we also played scene it? -- it actually is an addicting game!! i wanna play it over and over again...

it's been a while...

2008-04-13T17:37:00.003+08:00

13 april 2008

wow. it's been a little over three months since i last posted here... i guess i was a bit preoccupied about updating my myspace blog... but anyway...

usually when i update my blogger, um, blog, i'd just ramble on and on about different musings i'd have on my idle times, ramble about different excitements i've just experienced, and most of the time, i'd just rant about what sucks in my life.

this one would be one of those: ranting about what sucks in my life.

*sigh* ideally, it's not supposed to be this way, you know? what messed up person would rather confide in an electronic medium, to be read by anyone who may happen to stumble upon this site, than confide in other living, breathing, human beings? yeah huh. i think i just dissed everybody who owns a blog. i guess it's not my fault that nobody wants to listen to us, to me.

anyway, like i said, this is a ranting entry, and here's what i want to rant about: my mom. simple as that. i don't know if she's just old or what but it's downright impossible to reason with her now. utterly impossible. i don't know how people at work do it, but it's going to be a freaking warzone if you ever try to reason with her. i swear, if she just wasn't my mother...

take what happened these past two weeks for example. she'd get really, really mad at me (to the point of actually shouting at me in a mall, for crying out loud) just because i haven't bought an outfit to this stupid dance number thing that they're going to do for the company anniversary. yep. she's blown up on me just because of a stupid outfit for a stupid dance for a stupid company. in the first place I WASN'T EVEN SUPPOSED TO BE IN IT! and then she goes and busts her knee and expects me to take her place to that stupid sonofa***** dance number for that stupid sonofa***** company. i didn't want anything to do with that, with any of that. but, trying to be the good daughter that i supposedly am to do a request by my oh so great mother, and that she absolutely gave me no choice anyway, i gave in. okay. i was going to do the stupid dance. then she drags me to go shopping for an outfit that i still have no idea what it's supposed to be or what color it should be in, since i haven't actually seen all the outfits that the other participants are going to wear. and since i'd just be using it for only ONE time, she drags me to all these designer boutiques, which, i must add, are pretty darn expensive. all for an outfit that i'd pretty much wear for only a few hours (even minutes) and then forget that it ever exists in my closet.

and then she goes and says she doesn't understand me. i mean, COME ON!!!

it's me (and a whole bunch other people) that always gets stuck between a rock and a hard place everytime she'd just decide that she'd have one of her furious spells. nobody ever knows where they'd place themselves with her. sala sa lamig, sala sa init, as the saying in tagalog goes. it's like you're ALWAYS wrong... it's always your fault.

like i said, this sucks, big time.

way bigger problem: she won't believe a thing i'd say. she'd rather believe other people than believe me. really. would you believe that? i'm literally shaking my head as i type this, since images of instances before come flooding back at this instance.

she'll always believe that it's my fault. i'm telling (well, writing) you, if there would be a third world war, i'm sure she'll blame me for causing it.

is the whole world against me now? my internet explorer decided not to respond properly on me a while ago while i was typing... darn.

now if only my mom could read this, but it would take a miracle (and even two more world wars) for her to actually learn to use a computer and the internet. her excuse: she's too old... yeah, right. nobody's to old to learn new stuff (i don't believe that shit that you can't teach an old dog new tricks... bah)...

i need a job, badly. i need to get far away from here, start a new life, where i could be me. heaven help me...

alrighty. first post for the new year ( and it's a long one!)

2008-01-02T20:22:00.000+08:00

02 january 2008

first of all, happy new year!!

okidoki. on with the post. harhar. hmmm... so what should i write about? the past year? new year's resolutions? i have absolutely no idea, so i'll shotgun this...........

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2007. wow. what a year. let me reminisce for a bit here... first i graduated (woooo-hooooo!), finally, and then got a job. first with our own company and then with hsbc. then i resigned from hsbc and have spent the rest of the year bumming out. come to think of it, i spent half the year working and half the year spending everything i earned. haha. oh yeah. as the year ended, i was elected into the board of directors for our company. wow. what a way to end the year. haha. anyhooo... i guess 2007 was some kind of a roller coaster ride for me. (alright, i guess this is the part where i contemplate on the past year.. haha) full of highs and lows... anyway... i guess 2007 was the year of frustrations for me, as well as a year of - for a lack of a better term - "returning" to previous norms and such.

2007 was frustrating for me in a way that there were a lot of things that i didn't get to do, and hopefully i'd be able to do them this year... hehe... anyway, like, i really didn't get the job i really wanted - i got stuck as an HR assistant and then as a customer service outbound agent (which really, really sucked, by the way). i guess one of the few things that i pride myself in doing is resigning from that sucky job. haha. i know, it'll be bad on my resume and stuff, but hey, i can't go pretending that i'm doing great when in reality i'm not. just being real, here... anyway... i guess the year also kinda sucked because of things that happened (if you'll read my posts throughout 2007, i'd gather you'll have a general idea of what sucked and what didn't... =D), and that some things (or people for that matter) just can't freaking leave you alone! i mean, what did i ever do to deserve this?! yeah, a bit melodramatic, but hey, you can't blame me for doing that. if it were you in my shoes, dang, i know you'll probably feel the same thing. anyway, looking back, i think that 2007 for me was a time where i was probably still looking for my own "niche", my own "genre", so to speak. i know i suck at customer service as an outbound agent, i know i don't like doing human resources. career-wise, i think we can conclude that i won't be looking for jobs along that line. hehe.

what else? oh yeah.

like what i wrote a couple of paragraphs above, 2007 was also a year of "returning" - so to speak. i don't really have specifics or anything, but i guess this includes my "love" for power rangers... i guess i have to thank hsbc for letting me re-live my power rangers days.. haha.. but seriously, though. i kind of actually re-discovered power rangers when cartoon network aired power rangers wild force again and i stumbled across it one afternoon while i was channel surfing a couple of years ago. but i really got into it again when power rangers spd was aired and i was surfing the web for info on episodes and such that i tumbled into rangercentral.net and found out that there was a '15th season anniversary' episode that was going to be aired. so further 'researching' led me to find out that adam would be one of the 'veteran' rangers that would return, and it got me hyped up. why? adam was (and still is) my all-time favorite power ranger ever. so, thanks to youtube, i actually got to watch the episode before anybody else here in the philippines does (or i would like to think so), and thanks to limewire, i could watch it over and over again. hehe. but after that particular episode, i have been searching for episodes from mighty morphin, particularly the third season, which is when adam (rocky and aisha) come in. i've watched the movie over and over again, and i could probably quote you the exact lines from the movie. so after re-discovering power rangers, i've kinda returned to my childhood programs recently: all those japanese sentais (bioman, maskman, jetman, etc.), sailormoon, v.r. troopers, and the like. so... i'm not returning to being childish, i'd like to get that cleared, i just reconnected with my childhood... it was a year of being so uptight and so grown-up that reconnecting with my childhood was actually a nice outlet for stress and all that.

*i'll also be posting this same entry on my blog at myspace, so if any of the former rangers who are my friends on myspace, please don't delete me from your friends, it's just that power rangers has been (and will always be) a big part of my life that i couldn't just ignore or move on from. heehee. so... bear with me, please.*

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alright. so now that i've pretty much summarized what happened to me in 2007 (which mainly is power rangers), i guess now's the time where i get to outline what i plan to do in 2008. hopefully this will be easier compared to actually thinking of stuff that happened to you the past year... anyway, here goes:

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so. what can i do this 2008? hmmm.. let me see:

- i'll be going to europe, finally. that's already being worked on. hopefully i'd be able to go this march... i'd finally get to actually remember going to europe. hehe. see, this trip would be my second trip to europe, since i got to go when i was about 22 months old. you see? i couldn't remember a damn thing about that trip, so now that i'm finally going to go, all 22 years of me, i would get to remember going (and actually have proof that i've been to europe!) haha. so there. i am so ecstatic about this right now!! and, i promise to post about that trip as soon as i could get to a wi-fi spot. =) heh.

- i'll be going to hawaii! =) yeah baby! this will be the first time that i'll be going to hawaii, so i expect that it's going to be great. i mean, i've been to LA and LV loads of times so i think that it'll be cool to go to another state, for a change. hehe

- i swear that i'm going to find that job that i really want this year. whatever it takes, dude. whatever it takes.

- what else? hmmm... maybe if there's going to be another power ranger convention like the power morphicon 2007 this year, with adam (and possibly rocky) attending, i'd be raring to go! maybe during march? in hawaii? come on... i'd really love to meet them, and then i could die happy. lol.

- maybe i'll go try and meet people that i want to meet. like my all time favorite actors, or something like that. maybe try an extreme sport... hmm...

- oh yeah, i just remembered. if i find that job, i'm going to be moving out of my parent's house! wooooo hoooo!!!!! that's my next adventure!

at this point i can't totally think of anything else i'd like to do for the year, since it's already 11pm by this writing. funny thing, i actually started writing this post at 9pm, but i logged on to youtube and searched for the power morphicon clips so i watched while i was writing this, haha, so now i'm a little sleepy and i still have to wake up early tomorrow for all the errands i have to do. so, yeah, my brain is kinda sleeping on me now, so i'd cut this one short(er). so.... until the next post?

** disclaimer: i am not a power ranger stalker (or obssesive shadower, in the politically correct term my cousin came up with). i am a huge fan, i could give you that, but not a stalker. or some desperate fan who desperately wants to meet them. i just want to meet them, but if that doesn't happen, then life goes on. they're my friends on myspace, but that's about it. and quite frankly, it's going to be pretty hard to stalk them, with the whole pacific ocean separating me from them. i live in the philippines and they live where? the united states? so come on.. practicality, people. i'm not filthy rich to go jetsetting wherever.** i just wanted that out. paranoid? maybe.

haaaaaaay NAKO

2007-12-17T17:00:00.000+08:00

17 December 2007

haay nako.

bakit ganun? kailangan ba lahat ng hinihingi ko kapalit siya?? utang na loob naman!!!! kung isasakripisyo ko ang prinsipyo ko para lang sa isang telepono, wag na lang... ako nalang ang bibili ng telepono!!!!!!! bwiset!!!

sinusumpa ko ang araw na pinanganak ang hayop na yan!!!!!!!!!

...bwahahahaha...

2007-11-25T19:03:00.000+08:00

25 November 2007

weow. nearly a month has passed since i wrote stuff down here. guess i've just been busy --- was called to relieve a person in our company a few weeks ago since he got suspended... and since i have been involved with the company for a few months before, i guess the sensible decision was to call me and let me take over for a while... y'know, cause i kinda know the knitty-gritty of the job; and do i mean knitty-gritty. imagine doing all the payroll, per diem and meal & site allowances for everybody! holy...

anyway... it's a one time thing though -- doing all those payrolls and such is murder! wouldn't dream of doing it again... unless there's this really nifty software that makes the job a whole lot easier!

so i'll be finishing that stint by mid-december, and after that i'm officially a bum again (woooo-hoooo!!!!)! however... i'll be preparing for quite a busy 2008... here are my plans so far:

- i'll be facilitating an english proficiency training for our employees. i know, i know. it's hard. but, if i'm going to get paid for it... why not? i think i could pull it off... :D

- we're planning a management training program for managers and supervisors... hoopefully the program could make better managers out of the managers in our office.... haha

- i'm off to europe! wheeee!!!!

- i'm off to hawaii!!! double wheeee!!!!

- after that, i'll be job hunting!! harhar

well? what'd i tell you? a pretty busy 2008, right? heehee

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speaking of my previous post (see below =P), it seems like i'm more and more regaining that power ranger hype i've had since i was a kid. i swear. i'll wake up at 7:30 am on a weekend just to watch. i know. i've got it bad. in my defense, though, it's an avenue for me to de-stress... especially after doing all the payroll stuff... hehehehe

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anyway... i'm really not that much in the mood to put in a really long post.... so.... i'll cut it here for now... :D

it's morphin' time!

2007-11-02T18:22:00.000+08:00

02 Nov 2007

it's been a long week full of holidays... let me recap:

monday - barangay and sk elections. naturally, no classes, no work. and another day of philippine politics in front of our eyes.

wednesday - halloween. the night before all saint's day. considered half-day for classes and work.

thursday - all saint's day. no classes, no work. time to visit the dearly departed in the cemetary.

friday - all soul's day. still no classes, no work. technically, this is the time to visit the dearly departed, though i think it has been tradition to visit the day before.

in summary: this has been a very, very long week. why? my mom's home all day. wouldn't want that, honestly.

since i've been unemployed (yeah-huh) for more or less two months now, i've been able to think a whole lot. actually, my mind has been imaginatively active most of the time and sometimes i could go on daydreaming (so to speak) for the whole day if i really had nothing to do (which is most of the time). which is kinda freaking me out, honestly. i've gotta be careful to cross that fine line, if you know what i'm talking about.

speaking of the title of this entry (see above), yep. you read that right. my passion (or love, whichever) for power rangers has been rekindled! *sigh* and i'm not talking about the latest spin-offs or seasons of the power rangers. i'm talking about the original Mighty Morphin Power Rangers. yup. adam, rocky, aisha, billy, kim, tommy, zach, jason and trini. it's kinda hard to believe that it's been 14 years since the series first started, and now there are 15 seasons to the series. wow. *whistles*. and it's hard to believe that i've grown up with power rangers in my system. wowee. darn... i must be getting older already... hahahaha

as of this writing, i'm looking at steve cardenas' pictures on myspace. for those who don't know, steve played rocky on power rangers. yup. he has a myspace page (although i don't think he'd want me to broadcast it here) and technically, he's my friend on myspace (yay!) hehe. anyway, it's so cool that you could connect to people who, ten years ago, i would never imagine talking to, much less be a friend. well, technically, we haven't 'talked' to each other yet, but that's beside the point. and i'm not limiting it to steve. i'm 'friends' with johnny bosch (who played adam), walter jones (who played zach), mike 'the miz' mizanin, ashley massaro, gregory helms and edge(all from wwe), to name a few of the 'famous' people (or celebrities) that maybe just a dream ten years ago. get what i mean? it's cool that the internet actually made this possible. it's just too bad that some asswipes ruin everything by making viruses. darn it.

changing topics...

i really, really want to travel before i go look for a job again. definitely going to the states, though. that's for sure. hopefully i'll be able to go to europe, too. *sigh* i wish my aunt would reply soon...

i'm running out of things to say... so i'll cut it here.

blurbs

2007-09-24T18:17:00.000+08:00

24 Sept 2007

i am so bored. literally.

i guess when i made the decision to quit my job, i should've expected the great boredom that was sure to follow. then again, i never really made any effort to find a new job... i'm still thinking about what i really want to do and if i'm going to work, i want to be sure that i'm going to enjoy working mainly because of the job. the enviroment and the friendships at work come a close second and third. but in all honesty, i haven't been really looking for a job since i still want to have a "vacation", so to speak (or write). also, i've been handling all the preparations and renovations for the condo, which i haven't been able to do for the longest time because of my previous work, so i guess after all the stuff that i've yet to do and still do i'll be getting on finding a job.

speaking of work... i just don't know where i'm going to work, since i can't pretty much determine where i'm going to work, right? i mean, if it's all up to me, i'm sure i'm working my butt off right now. but since i'm not in control (boo hoo), my loss. *sigh* it's a tough competition out there... you always have to prove you're the best candidate out of all of them. *sigh*. tough love... bummer..

in another light, i want to travel around... maybe europe, australia, the states... just go away for a while... i've also been thinking of getting another degree abroad... i'm not quite yet for the masteral studies, but another undergrad degree might be fun... =)

going back to boredom, i've gone back to writing my stories... and i found out that my mind is completely blank. no ideas whatsoever. man, this sucks.

oh well... another day of doing abso-bloody-lutely nothing passes...

you ever feel one of those days....

2007-08-18T10:56:00.000+08:00

18Aug2007

i feel like sh*t.

there's just so many things to think about and i feel like there's nobody to talk to about these things...

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have you ever had your own mom believe someone else than you? as in really, really believe him than you? i have. i'm currently the "enemy", so to speak. i just can't believe that my mom would sink sooooo low to please that f****** sonofa*****... and use MY personal stuff to do so! kamusta naman yon, diba? tapos pag nagalit ka, ikaw ang masama.... hindi ko na alam saan ako lulugar eh... it's so freaking frustrating to be in this position... kala mo naman kung sino siya... empleyado lang namin siya. ang lakas ng loob niya na gawin yon. sino ba siya? pwede ba????

you know what i want to do to that sonofa*****? i wanna kick his sorry butt... pucha pacute pa ampotah! parang hindi daw niya alam kung ano nangyayari... upakan ko siya jan eh... gusto ko na talaga ipamukha sa kanya na ayoko talaga sa kanya... yung tipong manliliit siya sa pagkatao niya... masama man iniisip ko pero wala na kong ibang maisip na paraan eh.. nababad trip na talaga ako sa kanya...

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moving forward... (shux eternal word ng manager ko...) i'm also thinking about my current job... don't get me wrong... i love working at hsbc because of the people and the pay and the environment... but i just don't like the job itself.... how can i continue working there when i can't give my 100%? i have a point, don't i? (can i just squeeze this bit here? i havent been able to continue this post for the longest time and as of this current writing, i've officially resigned from my job!)

another thing... there's this... guy... that seems to be expressing something lately... hah... bitin? don't you just hate cliffhangers? anyway... i'm really not that sure yet with what's going on but in due time, i'll give an update...

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gosh it feels so good to have no committment at all!!! woooohoooooo!!!!

i guess that's it for now...

hah!

2007-07-17T21:59:00.000+08:00

17Jul2007

it's been a long time since i made an entry here... maybe a couple of months or so... and i've got pldt to thank for that (stoopid people still account our loss of internet connection to the earthquake in taiwan months ago...)... we've just gotten this darn internet up and running... i just hope to high heavens that there would be no mishaps soon...

anyhoo...

ok. i've always thought that the last place i'm going to work for is a bank or any company in finance for that matter; i've always thought that i'm going to work for a company or an organization as a sales, events or marketing associate. but what do you know? i'm now currently employed with HSBC, the world's local bank (although i must admit i'm still in sales... =P). i remember writing the last time that i was working for our family company and that we've just come back from palawan... we'll a couple of weeks after that i got a call from HSBC inviting me for an exam... i thought what the heck and took it anyway... turns out i passed and i was slated for an interview... they actually called me back and said that i had a "talk" with the vp for strategic human resources (or something to that effect)... i thought it was for a second interview but surprise, surprise! it was already for a contract signing... i just want to say... nabulag ako sa sweldo... dahil lintik ang hirap!!! =( anyway... met some new friends there, and i'm currently enjoying my stay... hopefully i get regularized soon...

speaking of HSBC, i'm currently working at the HSBC Centre at the Bonifacio Global City... incidentally, i'll be moving out (yehey!!!!) and moving into my condo unit at Serendra, which is also located at the BGC. i'm crossing my fingers so i can get regularized asap! sayang naman kasi kung hindi din lang ako mareregular, diba?

i still want to tie up loose ends... although i don't know how...

in all honesty, i'm infuriated with a certain person right now. as in.

just watched harry potter and the order of the phoenix last saturday... all i can say is: woah. they all look so mature now... though cho chang (katie leung) kinda gained a few pounds (and i mean in weight...), the rest of the cast seemed to grow out of their baby fats by this movie... and i still don't like cho... heehee

i'm excited for the 7th (and last?) harry potter book... it's going to be released this saturday! OMG! sooo excited.... i'm going to go straight to the bookstore after our training to buy the book!!! holy... can't wait!!!!

i guess i better end this short... now that there's a decent internet connection, i can post anytime i can!! =D

...back from palawan...

2007-03-04T19:38:00.000+08:00

04 March 2007

it has been a long time since i wrote here... i've just been very busy at the office, and my (darn) internet service is still down (at least i think so)...

we flew out to palawan last friday; it was fun... though it was really tiring. i was with my officemates (naks!), and i was actually surprised that i had a really, really good time! of course, my closest friends in the office - dave, adrian, phercy and june - were there too, so naturally it was fun!

upon arriving in palawan, we checked into our hotel, the asturias hotel, and changed for our first tour of the trip -- an island hopping trip around honda bay. we ate lunch at the starfish island, and stopped at the snake island. i didn't swim, though, because it was really, really hot... mind you, it was around 1 pm, and the sun was directly overhead... although we went walking to the southern (?) tip of the island under the hot sun, but then again... you get what i mean? ;)

although it was a nice sightseeing event, it was very tiring; and on the way back to the wharf, practically all of us were asleep in the pumpboat.

after going back to the hotel, we had dinner at a beachfront restaurant/bar... where we caught the high tide... it's a good thing we were close to finishing our dinner before the tide came in. the food was delicious - and healthy all at the same time. i took a lot of pictures (as usual) and before i knew it, the day was over...

the second day started early, since that was the day that we were slated to go to the underground river. we had breakfast at the hotel at 6 am, and we left for the underground river at a little past 7 am. it was a 2 and a half hour trip to the national park, and then we had to take a 15-20 minute boat ride to the river entrance. let me just say that the 2 and a half hour trip was really, really, really bumpy, since the road was really, really rough... i was seated at the last row of the van and i had a long massage, thanks to the rough road... hehe.. the ride back to the hotel was the same... very bumpy, but somehow, a lot faster.... maybe because i got to sleep for a while, and *ahem*. un nalang.

dinner was served in the hotel, and there was a surprise for one of the managers who was celebrating her birthday. dave, phercy and i played a little table tennis, had a lot of pictorials and they wanted to throw me into the pool.

i really enjoyed this trip, especially i had close friends with me there... i believe it was a great bonding experience for us, and we got to know each other a little more better than before...

i sure hope that there would be more trips like this for us... kahit kami-kami nalang. =P

sabi ni phercy, pustahan may panibagong isyu nanaman yan bukas. haaaay nako. bahala sila mag-isip ng gusto nilang isipin. basta kami, alam namin yung totoo.

sankapa?!

2007-01-12T13:42:00.000+08:00

12 january 2007

hala! unang entry ng taon... dapat last, last week pa ako nagkaroon ng entry pero dahil wala akong internet connection (maraming salamat sa PLDT MyDSL, at ang kanilang walang kupas na pagsabing dahil sa earthquake sa Taiwan kaya't wala kaming internet connection ngayon), ngayon lang ako nagkaroon ng pagkakataon na makapag-post dito... hehe mejo matagal-tagal na rin akong hindi magpo-post dito... sadya lang na madaming ginagawa..

~

sa wakas at natapos na rin ang aming thesis... nakapagdefend na kami nung 04 december 2006, at kahit na mejo na-okray kami ng panel, eh at least tapos na at gra-graduate na ako...

~

nagsimula na akong magtrabaho (hence the title, sankapa?!) dito sa opisina namin (kala niyo kung san na noh?! =P) at so far, so good naman.. ahahaha... siyempre ako lang ang katangi-tanging naiiba sa lahat ng naging contractual employees dito samin dahil, unang -una, anak ako ng may-ari. pangalawa, hawak ko ang kapangyarihan (see previous =P), at pangatlo, likas lang na iba ako eh. wag na silang magreklamo dun. hehehe... pero panglimang araw ko palang naman, kaya hindi ko pa masasabi kung gaano talaga ka "hectic" ito, pero... push comes to shove, anjan naman si mama eh. hehehehe...

~

speaking of work...

o my gulay... shet!

(yun nalang ang masasabi ko... ayoko na magsalita eh... hahahahah!)

~

anyhoooo... siguro hanggang dito naang muna... madali lang naman na magedit ng entry eh.. hehe

ayus! =P

all hail king booker??? i don't think so.

2006-10-23T20:22:00.000+08:00

23 October 2006

last saturday was a blast, minus the fireworks. i went to watch the WWE Smackdown! Survivor Series Tour scheduled last saturday with my friend and can i just say that it rocked!! i should've saved more money to buy two tickets... one for each show, or i should've saved enough to be seated ringside. *sigh* i wish WWE would have more live events here... or better yet, i could go work for WWE (Mr. McMahon? Anybody?). anyway...

i can't remember exactly how many times i've said that i want to be in law enforcement. i'm currently on a CSI marathon, and the more i watch, the more i want to be a CSI. heck, i'm even having dreams of being a CSI. maybe i've watched one episode too many in this marathon (take note: i'm barely into the fourth season), or maybe it's just so damn interesting to watch. why didn't CSI become popular when i was still in high school? maybe then i would've gotten into a degree program that could be close to becoming a CSI. *sigh* but, i'm keeping my options open. i also want to work for the FBI. yup. like i said, law enforcement. just not here in the philippines.

i'm going to be graduating in a couple of months. realistically, i haven't any clue where i would work. but ideally? i've already listed three above: WWE, CSI, and the FBI. nice, huh. but seriously, i really, really want to work in the WWE and the FBI. i swear. give me the chance and the opportunity, i'll do it! (so if anybody out there reads this...)

i better go back to my CSI marathon.

dahil may bagyong dumaan...

2006-10-01T20:53:00.000+08:00

01 October 2006

hala! unang araw ng buwan may entry ako.. haha... pagbigyan... ngayon lang uli nagkaroon ng kuryente, malamang ngayon lang uli nagka-internet... kaya eto...

pano ba naman, nung wednesday ng gabi, alam ko na na may bagyo na dadating. paggising ko kinabukasan, nalaman kong suspendido lahat ng klase, at signal #3 na yung bagyo... at dadaan siya ng metro manila. ayos, diba? bagyo... eh biglang nagyaya nanay ko na kumuha ng pinatahi sa jennmar... patay tayo dun... isipin mo, signal number 3 na yung bagyo. imbes na nasa bahay ako, ayun, sumugod kami ng quezon city (at taga pasig ako, sankapa?!) para lang kunin yung mga pinatahi na pwedeng pwede naman magintay ng hanggang tapos na ang bagyo, diba? hindeeee. kailangan na daw kunin yon. ehdi yon. sino ba naman kami para kumontra sa kanya, diba? ehdi ayun. sugod. at ayun din, kalakasan ng bagyo, nasa lansangan kami. hinarap namin ang malalakas na hangin at mga tumutumbang puno at poste ng meralco at pldt. shiyet. tapos brownout pa. malamang. madami ngang naputol na kable ng kuryente eh. kaya ayun. tatlong araw na walang kuryente. ayus.

sana kung hindi lang yon eh. talagang thursday ng tanghali lang umulan ng malakas. as in. pagdating ng gabi ng thursday at nung friday, ala na. papunta nang china ung bagyo. ayos ano? kaya ayun. ang iniwan, sandamakmak na nagsitumbahang puno, poste ng meralco at billboard. oo, billboard. sa kinadami-daming billboard sa edsa at south super high-way, ilan nalang ata ang natirang nakatayo. kaya ayun. trapik. nanaman. haaay. buhay nga naman ano?

at wag ka. diba nga walang kuryente, malamang walang pambomba ng tubig. in short, walang kuryente, walang tubig na galin sa deep well. buti nalang may back-up kami. nawasa. yung lola ko, galit sa tubig yon. kahit wala nang tubig, magaaksaya parin. kaya nung brownout, ayun. nadiskubre yung nawasa. hala, hindi na tinayuan yung gripo sa garahe namin. galing-galing.

pero... (nyak... realization kuno) napaisip din ako eh. kailangan pa ba ng bagyo para mapagisip ang mga tao kung ano na ang ginagawa nilang paglapastangan sa kalikasan (nakanangpuch anlalim)? kailangan pa ba ng bagyong kasing lakas ni milenyo (oo, yan ang pangalan nung bagyo) para maisip natin na sadyang napakadaming billboard sa edsa sa south super high-way na napaka-delikado sa mga motorista (ayun. may nahulog na billboard. may nabagsakan, patay.)? kailangan pa ba na madaming masalanta para malaman ng tao kung gaano kahalaga ang buhay? sa tingin ko hindi eh, pero anong nangyari? kinailangan pang paaalalahanan tayo. buti na lang bagyo lang. pano pa kaya kung lindol? o kaya yung sunod-sunod na pagputok ng bulkan? o kaya bigla nalang lumubog ang buong pilipinas? aantayin pa ba natin yon para magbago??? san man nanggaling tong mga tanong kong to, hindi ko rin alam eh. basta pumasok nalang siya sa utak ko. pero may point ako diba? diba?

narealize ko din kung gaano na tayo dumedepende sa bagong teknolohiya. at dahil nawalan ng kuryente, ayun. walang tv, walang cable, walang internet. naubos ang charge ng mga cellphone. walang mailagay sa ref at freezer. walang microwave. at dahil madami nang gumagamit ng electric stove grill, madaming hindi makapagluto ng pagkaen. tama ba yan? kumbaga ba, nung tatlong araw na nagbrownout, parang huminto ang pagikot ng mundo natin. yung tipong kakaen na ng hapunan bago pa mawala ang liwanag, tpos maagang magsisitulog, tapos ang gising eh hindi lalagpas ng pagbuka ng liwanag. kung ang bagong teknolohiya na ang nagpapatakbo ng buhay mo ngayon, bigla ka nalang mapapagisip: paano ako nabuhay noong hindi pa uso ang cable, cellphone at internet? hindi ba? natanong ko na sarili ko niyan. sigurado ako naitanong mo na rin yan sa sarili mo. hindi ba? wag mo na i-deny...

haay. sana hanggang ganito nalang ang mangyari. eh kaso lang, meron nanaman isa pang bagyong padating eh. sana lang talaga na hindi na dumaan ng metro manila. hindi ko na talaga makakayanan kung walang kuryente eh. inaamin ko, hindi talaga ako mabubuhay kung babalik ako sa panahon na wala tong mga to. pramis.

naka na! ang haba ng post kong ito. yaaan. yan ang nagagawa kapag tatlong araw kang nawalan ng kuryente. kapag tatlong araw kang nakatunganga sa gabi, binibilang ang mga gamu-gamo na umiikot sa liwanag ng kandilang hawak mo. hay nako. sa susunod na magbr-brownout, magpapacheck in ako sa hotel. at least sila, may generator. may cable pa. haha. =P

what a day...

2006-09-28T14:51:00.000+08:00

28 September 2006

I woke up today and found out that there was a storm passing through Metro Manila... guess what the storm signal was... signal # 3!!! and my mom actually wanted to go to Quezon City (yes, in the middle of a #3 storm) just to pick up a couple of tailored clothes. So, in essence, on the way back home, it was raining hard and the winds were sooooo strong... i literally felt the wind rocking the car! it was that strong! i'm not exaggerating! roads were unpassable due to numerous trees that were uprooted - my last count on the way home was 12... and my mom still doesn't want to go home... *sigh* but now the storm's on the way out of the country and school's back tomorrow...

this past week...

2006-09-14T16:51:00.000+08:00

14 September 2006

this past week was just so... tiring.

we've started surveying for our thesis... and, for the love of all that is good, it's really not that easy!!! not to mention scary, because we need to tap into the lower classes - classes c/d/e - for our thesis and one look around the area would make you think twice for your safety. just recently we had to survey a group of 'tambays' which just made my caution meter spike up to high heavens. i wanted to run away if it weren't for this danm thesis survey. i have nothing against anything - do not misquote or get me wrong here - but sometimes i just wonder if this is going to be all worth it afterwards... maybe i have to bring a knife or a tazer next time... oh well...

i'm going to start working on monday. (what?!) yup, you read that right. i'm going to be working. and i've always thought that the word 'work' and myself did not go in the same sentence. haha. =) anyway... at least i'll have money.. hehehe...

to tell you honestly, i really didn't want to accept the job... because that would mean that i would have to stay longer hours in our office (i may not have said earlier, but i'm going to be working at our office.. hehe), and it means more encounters of the third kind. well not exactly. hahah. i just want peace... can anybody give me that, please?

since i have nothing else to do...

2006-08-30T16:28:00.000+08:00

30 august 2006

it's another boring day of doing nothing... i know sometimes doing nothing is very welcoming, especially coming from a long week of stress from projects and exams, but other times, doing nothing is exactly why it's boring... just like today... just like it was yesterday... *sigh* at least tomorrow i get to go to school, only because it's our course card distribution... i practically know i've passed all my subjects, except my thesis, since technically, we wouldn't get any grade yet... anyway...

~

since i have nothing better to do than "waste" my time watching tv and surfing the 'net (you know what, even the 'net gets boring nowadays...), i've been watching stuff that on channels that i won't normally even think twice to watch... and it's turned out to be pretty interesting... hehehe...

i've been watching a show called "sue thomas, f.b.eye", which is about a deaf FBI agent... it's actually interesting to watch, especially when you have to hot guys there. yes, i said hot. haha. this is the first and the last time i'm going to say hot guys. argh. anyway... the storyline's fascinating in such a way that sue thomas cannot hear anything, but aided with her hearing dog, Levi, she makes it through everyday life ok. Her contribution to the FBI is that she could read lips, which makes undercover and "eavesdropping" a whole lot unconscpicous and easier.

another show that i'm looking forward every week is the newest season of Numb3rs.. it's so fascinating to know that math (very, very advanced math, i must add) could actually aid in solving crime... Not to mention it aids the FBI (yes, the FBI again) to actually solve exceptionally hard cases... and take note, these are actually inspired by true events...

there's been this show that i've been following that just went off-air all of a sudden has returned!!!! woohoooo!! thank you crime/suspense! Bones is back!! yeah!! just hope that it's the latest season... =)

anyway, it's already "sue thomas, f.b.eye" so i'll have to end this...

...

2006-08-23T15:58:00.000+08:00

23 august 2006

one down...

i have just taken the intreco final exam yesterday and i must say that i felt confident enough about that exam... i just hope that my feeling is correct, though. i really, really, really hope that i pass this dang freakin' subject. it would just suck if i fail this subject... it's going to be my only subject for the next term if i fail this one... *sigh*

one more to go...

it's this freakin' website for interac. our deadline for this project is on the 28th... and i still haven't quite finished it yet... hehe... lack of motivation, you know? i promise i'll finish this by monday... i have to... hehe. i don't even care what my grade will be... i just want it to be done...

something else...

thesis defense are scheduled tomorrow and on friday. i have mixed feelings about this one... i want to watch, but at the same time i don't... i mean, since we're deferred, i want to watch to see how it will go down, but i don't because it's so frustrating, knowing that we could've been one of those people who would defend our thesis... it may seem that i've accepted the fact that we're deferred, but actually, i'm still a little bit bitter about it... i mean, if it weren't for our *cough*beloved*coughcoughcough* mentor, then we would've been one of those defending our thesis... but then again, i had the feeling from the start that we couldn't have finished on time, either... *sigh* oh well...

i CAN'T believe this!!!

2006-08-21T18:10:00.000+08:00

21 August 2006

here we have no classes again... because of a freakin' holiday... anyways...

the biggest event of the year just happened. what am i talking about? i'm talking about summerslam. a lot of people may have seen the commercials in jack tv and etc... and i just checked with wwe.com about the results... and i CANNOT believe what happened. seriously. i mean, come on! i know randy orton was asking for it and dx prevailed once more against the mcmahons. but "king" booker AND edge retaining their respective championships because of what? sharmell and lita (respectively)! that is not something i want to see in summerslam... gosh! it's a good thing i didn't waste money going to the pay-per-views in megamall... rip-off! argh!

anyway... i should be reviewing for my economics final exam instead of wasting my time surfing the web for the results of summerslam or even writing in this blog... but i can't help it.. my brain needs a break... i can't study anymore and i still have a lot of paperwork to do... my brain is slowly dying on me if i don't take a break... and its always the time of day that my brain automatically shuts down... i can't explain it, but yeah. anything that's academic-related, my brain shuts down at this time. *shrugs* don't know why...

what really sucks is that freakin' economics professor of mine. very high standards, left the country for a couple of weeks to go to some freaking country, left the class to two very, very inefficient subs, and expects us all to pass the freakin' course. am i the only one who sees that this is sooooo wrong?! argh...

anyway.. i gotta get back to that paper. dang it. the only thing that keeps me going is that this is all going to be over soon... i hope.

sigh

2006-08-09T10:45:00.000+08:00

09 August 2006

it's 2 days before my birthday... woohoo. haha. i'm supposed to be excited and all that, since my birthday means gifts and money (haha) but honestly, i'm not. i suppose you want to know why? i really can't explain it properly; i suppose that it just comes with age. yup, that's right. age. and i'm not getting any younger.

it's actually funny 'cause before, when i was way younger, nothing seems to matter more than receiving my gifts and my birthday money. i would even go to the extent of reminding everyone that my birthday is coming up as early as june. that's how serious i was about my birthday. this time, however, i didn't quite have the same enthusiasm as before; i actually realized that my birthday was coming up at the start of the month. and by my standards, that's way late. haha. i guess what they say about people growing older: you tend to mature. 'tend' is the key word here. i'm not saying that i'm starting to get all serious and stuff; it's just that there are times that being 'carefree' and materialistic just doesn't cut it anymore. it's like it's about time that i finally have 'substance'. and i guess that's what adds to who i am.

speaking of who i am, now that i'm, let's just say, 'maturing' (hah), i just hope that nobody would try to change me into someone that they deem to be 'better'. i mean, i hope (and i'm crossing my fingers mentally as i type this) that people just accept me the way i am, and not expect me to conform to their ideals and expectations. that's what makes me unique for who i am. maybe i'll try to change a bit, you know, reach a compromise, but that's it. i won't change for someone if it means overhauling my whole personality and bending my beliefs and principles.

~

i have to wait three more months before i graduate college. now, i don't know whether i'd be happy to stay another term in school, or disappointed that i'd still be dependent and won't be able to do as i please. *sigh* i guess it's a little of both, you know what i mean? i guess i'm glad (in a way, not entirely) that i'd have an extension on actually pondering what's going to happen after college; disappointed because we could've finished the freaking thesis on time if it weren't for the numerous revisions that our *cough* beloved *cough* mentor made us do.

going back on the subject of the future (that sounds a tad intimidating), almost 4 years in college and i still haven't decided what to do after graduation. my mom had asked me a couple of times this year on what i plan to do after graduation, and i immediately answered, 'bum around'. but now it got me thinking: what happens after that? i mean, i am entitled to a few weeks, or maybe months of rest after at least 17 years of studying (it's been that long?!), but after this, what then? i haven't really given it much thought, and now, i am. i would definitely want to work in the field related to my study (which is organizational communication) which means that i'd really prefer to work in the corporate environment. i've actually given it serious thought to work in the WWE corporate headquarters, but even that seems a little far-fetched. i need to find work related to media and the corporation somewhere here in the philippines, but let's face it, there are just not that much options here. i guess that's one of the reasons that many filipinos would want to work abroad.

speaking of working abroad (yes, it's the second time i've used 'speaking of'), i've been hearing or reading stuff that you know, question the nationalism of these filipinos. like what my professor in history of civilizations said, it doesn't matter where you are, or what language you use, just as long as in your heart, you still hold the philippines dear in what you do. i have to agree. although i say: being nationalistic doesn't mean you have to endure everything happening in the philippines, or you have to stubbornly stay in the country although you know that you're going to go nowhere. it's about improving your own life as well as others', and it doesn't matter how you get it (as long as it's legal ;D). being nationalistic doens't mean that you would march head on in rallies and demonstrations opposing everything taht could be opposed. it's just being 'pinoy' at heart and living 'pinoy'.

~

my, my. isn't this an interesting blog entry. too many ideas cramped into so little space, so little time. haha. it's one of these rare moments where i actually make sense, or so i think. =D haha. anyway, i guess it's time to end this very long entry, my longest one yet (for the record! ha! as if i'm keeping record. haha). oh well... till my next 'serious' moment. haha

been thinking....

2006-08-01T19:10:00.000+08:00

01 august 2006

wow! an entry on the first of the month... haha...

i've been thinking... isn't it weird in a way why the wizarding world in harry potter have no clue about technology or technological advances? or the sciences, for that matter? i mean, what era is harry potter supposed to be living in? i'm assuming that harry lives in this century, because his uncle and aunt's place has tv, playstation, computer games, etc... why, then, hasn't the wizarding community kept up-to-date? we (that is, my cousin and I) were watching harry potter and the goblet of fire on dvd, and well, an old fashioned turntable (you get what i mean?)?? i mean, there are cds and radios and stuff like that, and i also know that muggle equipment cannot function properly inside hogwarts, but how come there aren't magical cd players or computers? wala lang. i was just thinking... why don't they have internet? i mean, they could call it the world wizarding web or something like that? *sigh* anyways....

oh. haha. i just remembered. our thesis: deferred. haha. means i won't be graduating on october. one more term. haha. i must loooove dlsu so much that i still don't want to go. haha.

i'm already excited. for what? the WWE SmackDown Survivor Series Tour (kailangan kumpleto. libre plugging na rin to. =D). i've already got my ticket. have you got yours??? =P

*sigh*. my birthday's coming up... again. not that i'm against celebrating my birthday, but i'm not quite keen on the idea anymore. maybe because i'm turning 21... oh well. you get older...

HAHAHAHAHA....

2006-07-21T21:00:00.000+08:00

21 July 2006

sobrang nakaktawa. sa sobrang nakakatawa niya, nakakabwiset na. *sigh* ang hirap talaga magpalaki ng magulang. grabe... minsan gusto nila na sabihin mo sa kanila ng maaga. pero pag sinabi mo naman, mababad trip... labo no? take this for example:

sinabi ko na nanay ko na baka deferred kami sa thesis, meaning hindi ako makakagraduate ngayong term. sinabi ko rin na factor dun yung sobrang kabagalan ng mahal naming thesis mentor. sabi niya bakit di daw namin kausapin para matapos kami agad? sabi ko ginawa na namin yon, hindi talaga aabot. edi ayun, sinabi ko na para hindi sha mashado magexpect... aba! bigla ba naman ako hindi kinausap?! ano yon?! sha pa ngayon ang may gana na mabad trip eh thesis namin yon... dugo't pawis namin ang bumuo dun, hindi ba dapat mas nakakafrustrate samin yon at dapat kami ang mabad trip?! but noooooo. siya tong nagiinarte. as if naman 100% ang suporta niya samin sa thesis na to. eh wala ngang school activity na inatendan yun eh. sori, pero kahit na isumbat niya na siya yung gumagastos para sa schooling ko, does she really think that's enough? i don't think so.

wala lang...

2006-07-19T20:29:00.000+08:00

19 July 2006

haaay. wala ako magawa ngayon. natapos ko na yung binabasa kong libro, yung "The Last Templar". astig. gusto ko tuloy maging FBI. mwahahahaha. siguro nagtataka kayo bakit gusto ko maging FBI, at anong kinalaman nito sa "The Last Templar"... basahin niyo para malaman niyo! Nyahahahahaha!!! (nyak. dapat may royalty ako pag bumili kayo ng libro. plugging to eh. mwahahahaha!!!)

neweiz... pupunta nga pala ang Smackdown! dito... AT MAY TICKET NA KO!!!!! wahoooooo!! excited na ako manuod ng WWE live!!!! ok, ok... alam kong october pa yon, pero grabe exagg sobrang malapit nang masold out yung event! hello?! july pa lang! feel ko nga sold out na for oct 22 eh.. hehehe... shiyet excited na ko manuod!!!! woooohoooo!!!

haaaay... i am sooooo bored! it sucks... shiyet sana may sumamang ibang taga RAW sa Smackdown Survivor Series Tour dito... nyahahahahah wala lang... nyak mangarap daw ba? buti nalang libre mangarap...

sana matapos na tong thesis na to. ayoko na magisip eh.

AAAAAAHHHHH!!!!

2006-07-04T13:48:00.000+08:00

04 july 2006

the smackdown! survivor series tour will be here in manila on october 21!!!! i wanna watch!!!! aaaahhhhh!!!!!

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on another note... i want a new phone... correction... i'm buying a new phone! wooohooo!!! i can't wait! =D

while waiting for my next class...

2006-06-19T15:44:00.000+08:00

19 June 2006

yes. it's my second post of the day... doesn't that tell you something? oh well... =P

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it's a boring day. i guess i have to come here to school tomorrow just to pass our thesis paper to our freaking thesis mentor. take note, this is the 4th week that we have been revising our thesis paper over and over again... sigh. i think that our mentor is telling us that we won't graduate by the end of this term. *i'm crossing my fingers hoping that the opposite would happen...*

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i still have 30 minutes to go till my next class... and while waiting here in the desktop lab, my blockmates are having the times of their lives in one corner of the lab. i have nothing against that, really, promise... it's just that they're waaaaay too noisy... no offense guys. it's just that i can't even hear myself think anymore. but they're great guys, i promise! =)

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are there times that you've felt that sometimes you just want time to freeze? i've felt that kind of feeling a lot of times, and sometimes, having hermione's time turner may be welcoming. it's just a scary thought of what might happen when you become slightly irresponsible with the time turner... *sigh*

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sometimes i wonder how my life would be like if i'm a boy instead of a girl... it's a scary thought, but hey, there are times when you just wonder if life was turned 360 degrees...

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i was thinking of other things to write, but i can't seem to remember.....

naiinis ako.

2006-06-19T13:44:00.000+08:00

19 June 2006

kala ko di na ako makakaencounter ng taong sobrang kapal ng mukha... hindi pala. grabe. hindi ko inexpect na may makikilala pa ako na grabe na sa kakapalan ng mukha. as in! as if andami na niyang nagawa! argh. ayoko ng mga groupmates na ganon eh. buti sana kung yun lang eh, pero hindeeee!!! kala mo kung sinong napakagaling na miyembro hindi naman nagbibigay ng concept nung mga meetings, tpos biglang aangal kung bakit ganon yung concept na naisip... well in the first place hindi nga sha pumupunta sa meeting! wag na niyang isipin na sa kanya ko ipapaedit yung project namin... di na kami aasa sa kanya... baka lahat ng pinaghirapan namin mabale-wala lang kung iaasa lang namin sa kanya. and he better not expect that we'll give him a passable quantitative report when he has done nothing! kahit na nagbigay kami ng tasks, it doesn't mean na wala na shang ibang gagawin... the least he could've done was show some initiative that he really wants to work for the grade! kahit mageffort naman sha na tumulong! my gosh!!! grabe na ang kakapalan ng mukha... sobrang argh. tpos wala man lang effort na magtanong kung ano nangyari or something?! exagg. ngayon lang talaga.. and take note... siya tong nagmakaawa na isama sa group namin, tpos freeloader lang pala siya?! hello... asa siyang ipapafreeload namin siya noh! >:(

ubreak ngayon. at wala ako magawa. kaya eto.

2006-06-07T13:08:00.000+08:00

07 june 2006

ubreak ngayon sa school. may program sa amphitheater. kaso lang pang frosh at hindi nako frosh... kaya eto, andito ako sa desktop lab. kaso lang... may mga epal akong katabi kanina. pakinangshyiet! kala mo kung sinong mga gwapo at kung magsalita eh parang lahat ng babae eh mahuhulog sa mga paa nila! kala mo kung sino! leche! hay nako... wala na tuloy ako maisip ngayon... bwiset!

makalipas ang isang linggong pagpasok...

2006-05-29T16:08:00.000+08:00

29 May 2006

ngayon lang ako nakaupo at nakaisip ng mga bagay bagay na nagiba ngayong pasukan...

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wala na masyadong mga frosh na gumagala sa main campus ngayon... lahat sila nasa bagong building na... yung bagong building na 6 lang ang elevator pero mga 20 floors xa. yung building na walang id scanner. yung building na hindi pa lahat ng classroom ay may aircon. yung building na madumi ang banyo. yung building na hindi pwede pumasok ang ibang estudyante kung walang klase dun. yung bagong building na minadali para lang sa pasukang ito. hay nako. good luck nalang sa mga frosh na yan. bago nga building nila, kulang parin sa para maging "world class" ang standard. gets?

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at dahil wala maxadong frosh sa main campus ngayon, maluwag-luwag na ang mga "main thoroughfares" ng campus. ibig sabihin, pwede na nila ayusin ang sj walk. pero, ang sj walk ganyan na. kung ayusin mo yan, di na sj walk yan. oh well. kung tutuusin, may benepisyo naman kung ayusin nila ang sj walk.. ibig sabihin mas malawak na ang basketball court. nyahahaha. joke lang. ang alam ko, mawawala yung mga bench na may chess board sa konkreto sa ilalim ng puno. mababawasan nanaman ng matatambayan. **ibig sabihin, mag iiba na ng tambayan ang santugon?**

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anyway... ang saya ng schedule ko ngayon. m-w-f lang ang pasok ko... kaso lang, pumapasok parin ako ng t-th dahil sa thesis. haaaay. sana talaga matapos na yan ng mabilis. para tapos na lahat. ayoko na magaral eh. siguro magmamasters ako after two years... para at least may break di ba? hehe

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speaking of schedules... may subject ako na 1430-1530 ng m-w-f... grabe kakaiba yung prof... imaginin niyo si professor snape na mas bumaet... ayun. weird pa nga kasi naninilaw yung kamay niya...

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so ayun.. yun muna... medyo nabe-brain drain na ko eh....

matagal tagal ko ding hindi nagawa to

2006-05-26T13:10:00.000+08:00

26 may 2006

mejo matagal tagal ko nang hindi nagawa to... ano yon? ang maglabas ng mga iba't ibang kuro-kuro at mga iniisip ko habang walang ginagawa at naglilipas ng oras. ang mga kuro-kuro ko'y pawang pagiisip ko lamang at wala akong nais patamaan. pinapangunahan ko na. baka may magbasa, tapos sobrang defensive nila at magreact eh hindi naman sila pinapatamaan. ewan ko kung bakit ganun. wala namang rason para matamaan eh... unless may ginawa sila kaya sila tinamaan. ewan. pagpasensyahan niyo na ung medyo mahaba-haba ito, medyo naipon lang yung mga iniisip ko.

anyway... magsisimula na ako.. pero para mas masaya, inisip kong i-divide ung entry na to sa iba't ibang section. (naks!)

bakit kaya?

-- may mga tao na sobrang naapektohan ng mga binabasa nila? kung ako, maapektuhan ako kung tipong pangalan ko na talaga yung nakalagay dun. as in sakto sa spelling at alam mong ikaw lang ang may pangalan na ganon na kakilala ng taong un. gets nio? kung hindi, eh... mahirap i-explain eh. ganito nalang. hindi ba't blog ito? at alam ng mga may blog na nababasa ito ng kahit sino? at maaaring gawing vague ang mga entries dito? diba? ang hindi ko maintindihan ay bakit may mga taong nagpapaapekto sa mga entries na ganito. basta ako, nagtataka lang ako. dahil di ko gets eh.

-- minsan may mga pagkakataon na sadyang hindi ka pinagbibigyan? yung parang lagi nalang ikaw ang may kasalanan? yung tipong lagi sayo ibinubungtong ang lahat ng nagagawang mali, kahit na wala kang ginagawa o kahit na siya yung gumawa ng mali? madami kasi akong kilalang ganyan eh. yung tipong ikaw ang sisisihin kung hindi nagayon sa plano nila yung ginawa nila. madalas akong mabiktima ng ganyan. hindi nalang ako nagsasalita kasi baka mabalingan uli ako ng galit. ayoko na.

-- may mga tao na talagang kakaiba magisip? yung tipong sila na ung mali, ipagigiitan parin nila na sila ung tama. hindi mo gets? yung tipong universally proven na mali talaga yung ginawa niya pero up till now pinagpipilitan nia na tama parin yung ginawa nia. irelevant na dito kung ano man ang pinagusapan or kung ano man ung sanhi nung nangyare. ung paraan lang. ung ginawa. hay nako. nakakainis yung mga taong ganito. anyway.

-- minsan parang gustong gusto mo na sumuko. parang sobrang pagod ka na sa takbo ng mundo, sa takbo ng buhay mo. yung tipong sana hindi ka nalang pinanganak. may mga pagkakataon na dumadating nalang sa buhay ng isang tao na mapapaisip ka ng ganyan. haay.

-- may mga taong sadya lamang na bastos? yung tipong parang sila lang ang taong nabubuhay sa mundo at wala na silang kusiderasyon sa ibang taong nabubuhay? para kasing dumadami yung mga kakilala kong ganyan eh. bad trip.

next section...

paano kaya?

-- kung hindi ako napanganak? ano kaya ang mangyayare sa mundo? mas masaya kaya ito kung wala ako, o mas malungkot?

-- kung bigla nalang ako naglaho na parang bula? as in yung tipong walang sabi-sabi, walang contact whatsoever, no nothing. may makaka-alala kaya saken? ano kaya mangyayari kung ganon? sasaya ba yung mga tao? lulungkot?

-- kung nakapagdesisyon akong sumuko nalang? as in yung tipong ayoko na talaga? ano na mangyayari?

-- kung ihayag ko sa lahat ng taong concerned ang lahat ng saloobin ko, kahit ano pa man ito? ano kaya gagawin nila saken?

wala na ako matanong. ayoko na magtanong. hindi rin naman nasasagot eh. nakakabadtrip.

woooooooo!!! =D

2006-05-25T20:53:00.000+08:00

25 may 2006

it's definitely a tiring day.

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today is a thesis day. and hopefully, we would be able to finish this thesis by the end of the term. it feels like we still have a lot to do, and time's not on our side. add to that is our oh-so-lovable thesis mentor. *sigh*.

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i watched the american idol finals a while ago... it was a great show... the top 12 were also there to perform... and yeah... clay aiken and the gay dude who was clay's "number one" fan... as well as carrie underwood... and would you believe that the artist formerly known as prince (tafkap) is still alive and kicking?! (and holy... his backup singers/dancers were sooooo slim and flexible!)... anyway... i'm sooooo glad that taylor won! i mean, he might not be the greatest singer but his no one from this season could ever match his personality!

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i am so bored, even my brain is on hold. *sigh*

while waiting for the video on you tube to load....

2006-05-15T19:51:00.000+08:00

15 May 2006

... i figured i could come up with something to post. =D hehe... well... here goes:

i still find the power rangers cool. i'm sorry for those who disagrees with me, but i grew up watching the power rangers. it's not exactly that easy just to erase it from my system. heehee ^_^*. i'm not kidding. i still watch the stuff. does anybody know where i can find the power rangers movie??? seriously.

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anyway, school is just a week away. i'm actually excited about going to school, and frankly, i'm expecting a LOT of stress. thesis 2 is on the way and we have to finish this freaking thesis by september or else. it's just that it's going to be easier that way -- not just for us, but also for all those freaking professors that are just going up our arses with this. sorry for the language. it's just that it's so frustrating.

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but enough of that. since i'm in a ranting mood, i guess i have to start with this one.

i really, really dispise people who have no consideration for others. example in point, you're the only person in the room, then suddenly somebody else comes in, you're watching a video on your own pc, then he (or she) opens his (or her) own pc then suddenly cranks up the speakers, while talking to a person on the phone, oblivious to you watching a video. of all the things that i really hate it's these kinds of people.

another thing i don't like is when people rant on you about another person, as if you can do something about it (my mother does this a lot). it's just that it's so irritating to talk about it out loud knowing that sitting there doesn't really cahnge anything. *sigh* what the heck. as if i'm not doing the same damn thing... only i'm using my blog for it. oh well.

the video finally completes its loading! i'm going to watch na! =D

because i'm soooooo bored...

2006-05-05T20:51:00.000+08:00

05 May 2006

Only 17 days to go till the first day of classes (for me, anway)! i'm just so bored here at home for the summer, and on top of that, I HAVE NO MONEY!!! that's why i'm so looking forward to going back to school... i'm going to get my weekly allowance again! *sigh*

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either it's just me, or this summer heat is weirding me out. you know why? the only things that preoccupy my mind this summer are wrestling, power rangers, anime and being online. why is it weirding me out? well, (1) i wasn't into wrestling until recently. i remember that it was a kurt angle-john cena match. (2) power rangers?! come on... it's been, like 13 years since the first power rangers series went on air... and i was 9 years old?! come on! since then there have been numerous spin offs, like power rangers wild force, ninja storm and dino thunder - these three being the most recent (not to mention that these three were or are currently being shown on cartoon network!). (3) i've been into anime for a long time, but i have stopped following series since i stepped into college. now that this is officially a boring summer, it seems that i have resumed my old ways: watching yu yu hakusho, flame of recca and fushigi yugi with a couple of new series that i watch - detective conan and chronicle of the wings. (aren't i a little old for these?) oh well...

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*sigh* and to top it all off, i just received a text message (as of this writing) from someone that i formerly knew. if that person still reads my blog, and when that person does, i've got one thing to say. WHAT DO YOU THINK?!

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this day just ended in crap.

its soooooo hoootttttt... rarr!

2006-04-21T21:03:00.000+08:00

21 April 2006

its so hot.

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birthday shout outs to John Cena, who turns 29 on sunday, and to Kane, who turns 39 on april 26! (even though they would probably never get to read this.) and of course, to Doreen, who turns 20 (yes, the big 2-0! =P) on April 30!!!!!!!
super belated happy birthday to Randy Orton, who turned 26 on April 1. (i know, i know. i just wanted to do those.)

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its so hot and boring i wish i was still in school. weird, huh? its just that there's nothing to do... and i'm used to doing something. there's a good thing though... i'm being able to sleep longer hours! yey!

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...see i don't even have enough to say!...

wala akong maisip na magandang title eh

2006-04-04T18:51:00.000+08:00

04 April 2006

after how many weeks... naipass na rin namin ang aming thesis proposal. . pero hindi pa tapos ang lahat. meron pang webgifs at finals sa stat. konti nalang...

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matapos lang ang linggong to, masaya na ako. matapos lang ang presentation ng webgifs, matapos lang ang final exam sa stat, masayang masaya na ako. pupunta pa naman kami sa fort ilocandia sa holy week. sana naman makapagrelax kami, particularly na ako. sa sobrang dami ng ginagawa para sa term na to (lintik na thesis yan! kung di dahil sa thesis mentor namin matagal na kaming tapos!!! o well), kinakailangan ko na talagang mag-relax. haaay. kailangan huminga. (inhale, exhale.)

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*Wrestlemania 22 updates*
RAW - champion parin si john cena. at champion parin si kane at big show.
Smackdown! - talo si randy orton at si kurt angle. si rey mysterio na ung bagong world heavyweight champion. erm..

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hay. kailangan ko pang magaral. bad trip naman eh...

konting tiis nalaaaang....

2006-04-02T21:58:00.000+08:00

02 April 2006

Wrestlemania 22 na sa US. sa 16 April pa ipapalabas dito. bad trip. pero at least... hehe =P

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konting tiis na lang. sa tuesday na pasahan namin ng thesis proposal. pasado naman na to eh. basta makaprogress sa thesis 2. (sorry thesis mates. kailangan na ksing grumadweyt eh.) newei, konting tiis nalang tlga. isang term nalang... sana lang tlga wag bumagsak ng philorl. bad trip. konti nalang tlga.....

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birthday ni randy orton kahapon. *sigh* ano na kaya nangyayari sa wrestlemania? siya na kaya ang mananalo sa kanilang 'triple threat match for the world heavyweight championship' laban kay rey mysterio at kurt angle?

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nagbbrowse ako ng 'hall of fame induction' pictures sa wwe.com... pakinangshyiet! ngayon ko lang nakita si john cena na naka suit! holy macaroni! hahahaha wla lang. kakaiba lang. lagi ksi xa naka t-shirt at 'hip hop' shorts eh. wla lang...

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gusto ko ng smackdown vs. raw 2006 na game cartridge ng PSP. pati ng harry potter. sooo... mga 6thou yon. hay. pano kya ko mkkpagipon? ideas, anyone?? =D

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till next time dudes.. rak on! nyahahahahahaha

*photos courtesy of wwe.com

a 'lil of this, a 'lil of that....

2006-03-26T21:28:00.000+08:00

26 march 2006

i know i'm supposed to remember something connected to this date, but what the heck, i don't have to stress myself thinking about that.

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we're nearing the end of the trimester, and with that, expect that there a lot of requirements waiting to be done and deadlines nearing each day. to top it all off, our freaking thesis proposal is due on the 4th of april. nice, right? not really. for a while i've been wondering if there was a course in dlsu that didn't require to do a thesis in order to graduate, and usually people answered me that there isn't one. but guess what? last wednesday i found out that there was indeed a course that is being offered in dlsu that didn't require a thesis to graduate! guess what course that was? ISTM. information software technology management from the college of computer studies. and you know what else? it was just offered!!! geez if that had been offered during my freshman year i would've took that course! hehehe... but anyway...

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13.5 units more to go and i'm graduating, hopefully, that our thesis isn't deferred. gawd i'm going to kill our beloved thesis mentor if ever he gets us deferred. i swear.

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my brain's slowly sleeping on me. better end this now. 'nyt!

hmmmm...

2006-03-01T21:39:00.000+08:00

01 march 2006

i feel bad. it's ash wednesday and i didn't go to mass. oh well... i'll pray later. ^_^*

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i've been thinking (again)... [i've been doing that a lot lately... it scares me!]

this time it's not so serious... hehe... =D i just caught the WWE Raw episode where John Cena and Maria fight with Edge and Lita in a match to determine who would name the special guest referee in the championship match the following week. John (yak close kami?!) and Maria won, and John got to name Mick Foley as the special guest referee. But that's not what got me thinking... looking at John and Maria battle it out with Edge and Lita, they actually look good together! hehe... yeah... look at them (go to www.wwe.com, and look at John's or Maria's page... they have photos together... go! look!) well? am i right? they do look good together... (admit it!) =P

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i'm missing the power rangers... not the kind of power rangers on cartoon network today (the wild force, and other spin-offs...) i'm missing the original (plus rocky, adam and aisha)... geez. this might sound a little geeky but i used to follow each episode! i even have the power zords (or whatever)... man...

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i have to admit... there are a lot of small fights (? not really sure of the proper terminology) happening to people. i happen to know quite a few of them... i just hope that someday all these people can put their differences aside and work together harmoniously! i know, i know... sounds a little out of hand, but it can be achieved... right?

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oh well. that's life!

been thinkin....

2006-02-24T21:16:00.000+08:00

24 february 2006

i've just been thinking...

due to the fact that there are no classes today because of the people power anniversary wherein the people have decided to go to the streets to protest the current government (*insert sarcastic tone* thanks a lot. *end sarcastic tone*), i've been thinking that there have been indeed a lot of things that are happening in our country today. what's so disturbing with that is that it seems like the only thing that people in position focus about is the bad things that are happening. it seems to me that they're spending all the people's taxes in making those bad things worse. i just don't get it. i mean, sure, power is indeed intoxicating. whoever said that 'absolute power corrupts absolutely' is positively right. once you're in that position, you wouldn't want to give it up that easy. which is why we had our classes cancelled today; people who had nothing better to do marched onto the streets of edsa and use the concept of 'people power' to force pres. GMA to quit her post. i mean, let's face reality here. they've been trying to do that for time immemorial but have they succeeded? noooooo. so, i say that instead they waste their time rallying, they ought to just focus on their work. but, hey. it's still their choice. i'm not the one who's not earning.

anyway, enough with the politics. i just wanted to release that bit. but anyway, who's going to listen to me, right? moving on...

since i had a loooong day of doing absolutely nothing, i've begun to wonder why the heck am i now watching the WWE as if i'm some hard-core fan? i mean, up till, well, the start of 2006, i didn't give a damn care about the WWE. much more watch an episode. what happened? i can't answer my own damn question. i really don't know why, and it's bugging me. i mean, come on! *sigh* it just so happened that i was channel surfing, then i passed jack tv, which was showing an episode of either smackdown or raw, then i watched. after that, i was hooked. after 20 and a half years not watching wrestling, here i am, hooked. *damn you, wrestling gods!!! argh!!*

well... i guess that's that. (what?!) ahhh... you might be thinking why that short? well, i slept half the day, so there.... hehe =P

sigh

2006-02-08T19:49:00.000+08:00

08 February 2006

this was not a happy day.

we have to submit a "new" proposal by the third reading (which, by the way, is next friday) with all the details (which was already in the proposal but we were instructed by our "loving" mentor to omit). not to mention the defense we had a while ago. i swear i was so nervous that my vision was actually shaking. literally. that's how nervous i was. and to find out that we need to submit a new proposal by the third reading, damn.

it wasn't as if that defense was the only thing that i was worried for today. we had an exam for my philorl class and damn the only bit that i can remember is our friggin defense in the afternoon! d'oh. felt that i didn't answer the questions justifiably (is there such a word?). damn. this sucks.

and to top it all off, the rotc is (and always has been) depending on me for stuff! i mean, the only job i had to do was take the pictures. i'm sorry for ranting but what happened a while ago was not exactly pleasant. i wasn't the one responsible about the reservations and stuff, and it irks me because i wasn't supposed to be stressing myself about that, and i found myself stressing about that. *sigh*. it's not that i don't want to help them, i do, i really do, but sometimes, it is a bit too much for me to handle. and mind you, i am having my thesis now, and i am technically not a part of that anymore.

in summary, this is one bloody hell day.

happy new year!!!! hehe =P

2006-01-08T17:56:00.000+08:00

*sigh*. it's been a long time since i last posted, and that was last year! (well, technically, i last posted last december 2005, and it's already january 2006, so, my last post was technically last year already. hehehe) anyway, since it's already the new year, i have a new laptop (yey!) to use in posting! heheheh =)

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two terms (hopefully) to go! this term, i am already taking up my thesis 1, and hopefully we would be able to finish it without being deferred. i'm not used to this much free time... i officially have tuesdays free... and i'm not used to not going to school everyday! *sigh* it's weird, having spent my entire stay in la salle going to school everyday! *sigh*

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okay. officially, i am scared to death for our thesis.

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i don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing, but i'm slowly pushing a certain organization out of my system. =P maybe because i had been busy last term and i wasn't able to go there all the time, or maybe i've just started to outgrow them. somehow, a lot of things are changing now that the reality that i only have two terms left in dlsu is dawning on me. entering this new term with our thesis in mind certainly lets someone push out every other irrelevant thing out of their minds. i just wish that all turns out well this term... i wish that we would get approved at once...

sigh

2005-12-09T20:04:00.000+08:00

disclaimer: lahat ng isusulat ko dito eh pawang mga iniisip, tanong, at kuro-kuro ko lamang. kung may matatamaan: bakit kayo matatamaan?? hmmm... bakit kaya? anyway....
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masaya ako ngayon. hehe. mukhang magiging masaya ang pasko ko. bwahahaha. ok, fine, di gaano ka-saya, pero masaya parin nonetheless. yikeee! bakit kaya?? hmmmm... secret! =D basta, astig to. super! hehehe... sana lang eh matuto xang magreply sa mga text... kaya nakakadiyahe (nyak! da word!!) magtext eh... hehehehehehe.. =P

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ngayon ko lang napagtanto (naka na! 'napagtanto daw o...') na sadyang may mga taong napaka-childish. ang kapal pa ng mukha nila na sila pa tong mga nagsasabi sila'y napakamature para sabihin nila na sila lang ang laging tama. kelan kaya nila matatanggap ang katotohanan ng realidad na hindi lahat ng tao ay susunod sa kanila? hindi lahat ng tao ay matatakot nila at mademandahan nila ng respeto galing sa tao. ang respeto ay pinaghihirapan, hindi nakukuha dahil sa takot. hay. mejo mahaba-habang discusyon to kanina eh. hehe. owel. sino ba kami para mangialam diba?

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haay. matapos lang ang tuesday makakahinga na ko ng maluwag. ay, hindi pa pala. kailangan makuha muna ang course card namin. leche naman o... sana naman pumasa ako ng orgavid... kailangan ko na magthesis next term! gusto ko na grumadweyt! gusto ko na umalis sa bahay na ito!!!! argh. lecheng mga prof yan o...

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hay. think positive nlng. think about happy thoughts... think about.... hehe =)

rock n relief

2005-12-05T11:40:00.000+08:00

yes! after 3 months of planning and stressing, nangyari na ung event namin nung saturday (03 December 2005) sa Mugen Bar and Restaurant sa Metrowalk.... grabeeeh! asteeeeg!! lupet ng mga banda! hehe, para sken ah, parang mas astig pa ung ibang front acts namin kesa sa ibang main acts.. hehe... pero sa akin lang naman yon... hehehe... pero astig tlga... kahit nakakapagod ksi buong araw na akong may ginagawa, enjoy paren... kahit harassed... at least nabawi namin lahat ng ginastos namin, may tubo pa! hahahahahaha...

dami nangyari! daming tao! asteeg! kala namin walang maxado ang pupunta, pero madami din pala! =) asteeg!! sayang ung mga hindi pumunta... andami niong namiss!!! hehe lalo na ung fashion show... hahaha enjoy tlga ung buong gabi!!

hay nako...

2005-11-25T15:26:00.000+08:00

nako nako nako... ang mga panahon na katulad neto ako napapagisip kung bakit ako nag-orgcom sa lasalle. minsan iniisip ko, pano kung nag-adver ako sa ust? mas madali ba buhay ko don? hay. hindi ko alam. sobrang bilis ng panahon dito sa lasalle... sobra. parang feel ko na unti-unti na akong pinapatay dito.... anyway....

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PLUGGING:

watch! ROCK N RELIEF, on 03 December 2005, at Mugen Bar, Metrowalk, Ortigas
it's a Christmas concert for the benefit of StreetPals, a NGO aimed to rehabilitate and shelter street kids with drug addiction that is in danger of shutting down. all proceeds would go to StreetPals. tickets are priced at 150 each with free shot! contact me for more details! =D

STRESS!!

2005-11-21T21:50:00.000+08:00

it's been 19 days since my last post, and i guess you guys (naka na!) are wondering why: these past few days have just been sooooo stressful that i find that 24 hours in a day is just not enough for all the requirements that we have to do. schoolwork even extends to the weekends, and i'm not saying up til saturdays only, but even sundays! can you believe that? the only one day of the week where i can unwind and rest is still being taken up by schoolwork. i guess this is the price we pay for studying at La Salle... its just so damn hectic and fast-paced that you can never track the time - how long the term's been, or how fast you need to do this certain project. one thing's certain, though. a deadline after a week is normal, more than a week is heaven.

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a lot has been happening lately. and i just found out that certain people, even though they should be acting maturely, are still too childish. i don't know about others but now i am not surprised why there are certain people out there who are still wondering if ever the other party would be the one who will make the first move to 'regain' or 'restore' the friendship that was lost over a stupid, idiotic move that certain people make. well... not this time, not ever. it's not my loss.

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damn. the reason for why i still found the time to update my blog totally escapes me. i am aware that i still have a lot to do for my majors, but i don't know... i can't seem to find an explanation for this... sigh. if only life were that easy.

sigh

2005-11-03T14:53:00.000+08:00

03 November 2005; 1458H -->start
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*sigh*. this day is proving to be soooooo boring. chalk one up for our prof being sick. yeah, sick my butt. (sorry for the language). she's the one who's skipping all these precious time away. just don't let me hear her say that the deadlines still hold. i swear i'm going to kill her. it's not my fault that she has things to take care of. we do too, and still we do what we're supposed to do (complaining loudly at that, but still, we do our tasks).

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oh yeah, i could've just gone to school at a later hour, since i knew that she was going to be absent today, but then again, i was to do our concept proposal and rationale with my groupmates for our final project in orgavid. yeah, i got to school early, ready to do a paper, but then, only one of my groupmates show up. and yeah, she just showed up because she didn't know there wasn't going to be a class today. so, given the fact that if she knew, then she wouldn't even come to school. so, going back, we didn't get to do the paper, since we still didn't know the format, but we could've discussed it then, but like i said, there was only two of us, so what was there to discuss? sigh.

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anyway, we decided to eat lunch at mcdo, where we --that is to say, farrah and i, talked about a lot of things, things that i dare not to put here. just in case other people will read and assume that i'm talking about them (hehe. pun intended. =P). anyway, after that, i ran into walther, and since i had nothing else to do that time, i accompanied him while he ate and waited for his brither and Fig. We also talked about a lot of things, and again, things that i dare not put here because someone might pass by my blog ands read and assume that it was him or her that i'm talking about. you know the drill.so there. haha. anyway, i'm still waiting for my next class, which is still later. gosh... i don' t know why i'm soooo bored today... all this because our prof was absent! argh!
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03 November 2005; 1534H -->end

geddemit!!

2005-11-01T21:23:00.000+08:00

this week's supposed to be relaxing -- the government's declared it a holiday, except wednesday and thursday, which i think personally was also supposed to be declared a holiday-- but then again, instead of being relaxing it's just as stressful, to us especially. did it even occur to GMA that not every university is semestral, and that we are affected by those two days in between declared holidays???? geddemit...
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not only that, but there are professors who are really, really getting to the limitations of my patience. i don't care at this point whatever people say about expecting that subjects are harder in DLSU because we have higher standards etc... there are just some professors who have fun in seeing their students suffering from all their requirements. geddemit! if only it wasn't a crime to kill.. sigh.

haaaaaaaaaaaay....

2005-10-28T13:31:00.000+08:00

may mga pagkakataon ba sa buhay mo na minsan lang talaga na handang handa ka na sumuko? alam ko madalas ko nang sabihin yan dito sa aking blog pero taagang minsan ay may mga oras na hindi ko na talaga kaya. katulad lang kanina. may exam kami sa persuad, siguro mga 30 minutes ang naaksaya namin sa pagaantay ng copy ng exam questions... sabi nung prof ko na binigay daw nia sa secreatry nung department namin para ipaphotocopy... eh yung secretary kanina lang pinaphotocopy... leche. kung pinsimulan nalang nia samin yon agad, ehdi sana hindi kami mashadong nagmamadali at mas maayos pa ang mga sagot namin, diba? wag lang siya magreklamo na ampapanget ng mga sinagot namin, magaamok na talaga ako... sumakit pa talaga ang ulo ko dahil sa exam na yon.. argh! shyet pa lahat ng kailangan gawin for orgavid! ang dami talagang kailangan gawin para lang sa pagplplano ng isang video... ngayon naiinitindihan ko na yung mga processes na ginagawa para lang makapanuod tayo ng isang episode ng CSI (at siyempre kailangan i-connect ko sa CSI... haha... yung kasi yung pinapanuod ko kagabi, kaya ayan, na-connect ko. haha). shyet talaga... tapos kailangan pa magpass ng PNA draft by tomorrow!!!! argh!! 30% pa naman yon ng midterm grade namin para sa orgavid... shyiet, pare. naloloka nako. ambaba pa naman ng mga unang exercises ko, may 0.0 pa... shyiet talaga... lagi ko nalang sinasabi na babawi nalang ako next time, pero hindi parin talaga ako nakakabawi!!! naiinis ako... parang wala talaga ako sa production... nakakainis... sana naman pumasa na ako dito... kahit 1.0 lang... masaya na ko... basta makathesis lang, ok nako... grabe talaga... ang hirap na ng mga ginagawa dito sa orgavid... feel ko talaga magkakasakit ako dahil dun eh... hindi lang dyan natatapos ang problema ko!!! meron pa kaming events, ang daming kailangan planuhin... sumasakit na ulo ko iniisip ko palang yon... shiyet tlga!!! sige, mamaya nalang uli ako magdadagdag... mejo meron pa ko kailangan gawin eh.... :P

hmmmmm...

2005-10-20T11:21:00.000+08:00

*disclaimer: kung ano man ang nakasulat dito, mga iniisip ko lang at mga kuro-kuro ko lang ang mga to.* mahirap nang hindi maglagay ng disclaimer eh. minsan lang talaga may mga taong nagbabasa na feel nilang sila ung tinutukoy. haay.

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anyway, naisip ko lang kung bakit may mga pagkakataon na hindi lang talaga maintindihan ng mga ibang tao ang iniisip mo. Yung tipong nabanggit mo lang ung iniisip mo, as in out of the blue lang, as in wala lang, tapos iisipin na nila agad na baka sila yon, or may pinatutunguhan ka sa iniisip mong yon. grabe pare. napakaparanoid naman non. hay nako. minsan, hindi nako nagtataka kung bigla nalang silang magcomment na parang dinedefend nila sarili nila, parang tinamaan sila. ang tanong ko lang naman, bakit sila tinatamaan? bakit kailangan nilang magreact ng ganon? ang sakin lang naman ay, bakit ka tatamaan kung wala ka naman ginagawang mali? diba? bakit mo kailangan na idefend ang sarili mo kung hindi ka naman apektado? un lang. ang daming pagkakataon na ganyan ang napapansin ko eh. iba ung sobrang sensitive sa guilty eh. wala lang. napansin ko lang.

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bakit naman minsan may mga tao na kahit sobrang harap-harapan at lantaran na ang mga panama mo sa kanya eh hindi talaga siya naapektuhan? as in yung sooooooobrang dense. as in kahit na deretsahin mo na, wala parin. wala lang.

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sa mundo naman kasi natural lang na may kapareha ung isa, diba? kaya ayan. kung may sobra kung matamaan kahit hindi naman dapat, meron din naman tao na kahit sobra na patama mo sa kanya, to the point na deretchahan na, wala parin. haay. talaga naman ang duality ng mundo ano? kahit anong bagay sa mundo, meron.

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anyways... bakit ganon? minsan ang hectic ng buhay, minsan hindi. minsan ang daming ginagawa, minsan naman wala. minsan hindi mo alam kung paano mo pahahabain ang oras, minsan naman parang hindi gumagalaw ang oras. wala lang. madaming pagkakataon na nakita ko ang sarili ko na ganyan. hehe. wala lang.

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o xa, hanggang dito na lang muna. mejo mahaba na to, at may klase pa ko. hahahahahah...

hay nakoooooooo....

2005-10-17T20:06:00.000+08:00

grabe... di ko maintindihan kung ano na nangyayari... last week sobrang stressed ako dahil sa orgavid, ngayon naman parang wala akong ginagawa para don... ngek. labo.

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minsan ba nafeel mo na sobrang ready ka nang sumuko, pero hindi pwede? minsan kailangan lang talagang lumaban hanggang sa pinakahuling lakas na meron ka... kahit na handa nang bumigay ang katawan mo, hindi ka parin papayagan ng kalooblooban mo.... anlabo ba? minsan ksi, ganyan ang nararamdaman ko. tungkol san? sa madaming bagay... minsan sa pagaaaral, minsan sa kaibigan, minsan sa pamilya. halo-halo. walang iisang pinagkakatuunan. ganon. malabo lang talaga ang buhay sakin.

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pero eto, seryosong tanong: bakit may mga tao na kakaiba magisip, gumalaw (and the like)? kakaiba in the sense na salunggat siya sa pagiisip ng karamihan? sige, sabihin na natin na may mga tao na sadya lang na hindi "nagcoconform" sa society, pero ang tinutukoy ko eh hindi ganon... as in yung likas na tlgang kakaiba... wala lang... naisip ko lang..

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hay nako. buhay nga naman ano?

argh. ayoko na ng ganito...

2005-10-09T20:11:00.000+08:00

nakakaleche. hay nako. grabe na ito. hindi ko na ata makakaya ang mga pinapagawa samin. shyiet. alam nio ba ang feeling na sobrang hindi mo na alam kung saan ilulugar ang sarili mo dahil sa sobrang daming gawain na sadyang hindi mo maiwasang magkapatong-patong? ganon. as in. yung parang nahihirapan ka na huminga dahil sa pagkarami-raming sumasakal sa iyo. ganon. as in. kahit na sabihin na natin na sobrang daming kong oras sa schedule ko, wala parin. pagisip palang ng concept ubos na. pagasikaso lang ng dokumento, ubos na. parang tuloy ang sarap dekwatin nung time-turner ni hermione sa prisoner of azkaban. as in. para lang madaming oras para gawin ang lahat ng kailangan gawin. shyiet men. ayoko na. konti nlng susuko na ko. ayoko na tlga!!!!!!!!! di ko na kaya!!!!!!! argh!!!!
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bakit ba ganito ang mundo???? bakit ba ako ginawang ganito? ayoko na tlga...
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hay nako. di nako maxado magsasalita ng kung ano-ano dito. mahirap na, baka may mga magisip ng kung ano-ano.... hehehe. =P

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!

2005-10-04T22:18:00.000+08:00

hay nako. nakakastress naman to. 4th week palang namin sa second term , stress na agad. majors palang eh, haaaay. sumsasakit na ulo ko. ayoko na magaral. as in. malapit nako sumuko.

ang masama pa dun eh may mga tao na sadya lang talagang hindi marunong umintindi. hindi mo gets? sorry ka. di ko na ieexplain. basta. di na ako nagtataka kung bakit xa loner. hah. (nyak ansama. bwahahahahahaha)

sa sobrang daming ginagawa, wala na rin akong panahon magbigay ng aking mga kuro-kuro tungkol sa mga nangyayari sa aking paligid.... haaay. di ko na alam gagawin ko.

a day for discoveries... ahahahay!

2005-09-14T20:47:00.000+08:00

haaaaaay... huwatta day. astig na unang entry 'to after term break. haha. pero seryoso. ang dami kong natuklasan ngayong araw na ito. pero.... shempre hindi ko iisa-isahin kung ano-ano ang mga nadiskubre ko noh... baka may makabasa, at bigla nalang akong hindi kausapin. *disclaimer: ang mga isusulat ko sa entry na ito ay ang aking insights tungkol sa mga nadiskubre kong iyon. siguro magbibigay ako ng example, pero it wouldn't mean na yun nga yung nangyari, okis?*

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kahit anong klaseng pakikisama mo sa isang tao, kahit ano na ginawa mo, parang hindi parin sapat para sa ibang tao. biruin mo, sabihan ka na kaya hindi na "pwedeng" sabihin sayo kung ano ang nangyayari (pero take note, siya ang nagopen up nung topic ah) kasi hindi na siya nagtitiwala sa mga ibang tao. So, in short, parang sinabihan ka na rin na hindi ka na rin niya pinagkakatiwalaan, diba? at shempre, pagkatagal-tagal na niyang nasabi sakin yon, ngayon ko lang narealize. tanga ko noh? eh ksi naman, di mo iisipin kasi ikaw, nagtitiwala ka. hay nako.

pagkatapos-tapos ng pagkahaba-habang mga pagkkwento sayo tungkol sa isang bagay, at paghingi ng opinion mo tungkol don, at kung bakit may mga tao na sadyang hindi nakakaintindi, yung pinakaimportanteng bagay tungkol dun ay hindi man lang masabi sayo kasi sa kung anong rason na hindi ko masabi. bakit kayang kailangan pang itago? bakit kaya kailangan pang isipin kung ano ang iniisip ng tao, sabay sabi ng wala namang masama? bakit kaya? hindi kaya kasi may sinabi siya tungkol sa isyung yon, at ngayon, kinakaen (este, nilalamon) na niya ang mga pinagsasabi niya tungkol dun? anong tawag don? hindi ba hipokrito? hay nako. ang taas pa naman ng respeto ko dun dati, ngayon biglang nawala. as in nawala talaga. problema ko ngayon, likas nalang bang makikipagplastikan ako sa kanila (yep, dalawa sila. haha), o kailangan na bang magpakatotoo na ako sa sarili ko, pati na rin sa iba pang mga kaibigan ko na maaaring (at sigurado akong) madadamay kung may mangyari man? paano ko haharapin ang isang tao na wala ka nang karespe-respeto? hindi ko nalang ba papansinin at ilalagay ang pagkakaibigan namin sa alanganin? kasi kailangan din naman isipin yung factor na naging magkaibigan din naman kami eh. hay nako.

ang buhay nga naman. bakit kaya ang buhay napakagulo?

kung kelan sa tingin mo ay naiintindihan mo na ang buhay, pero hindi pa pala.

anlabo talaga.

di ko na gets.

likas lang ba ito sa tao?

human nature ba, in english.

bakit? bakit kahit anong gawin mong pagiintindi, hindi mo parin maintindihan?

hindi na lang buhay ang pinaguusapan, eh.

bakit ang tao sadyang malabo?

bakit may mga tao na sadyang bumabaliktad sa sinumpaang salaysay?

anong tawag sa ganong klaseng tao?

hipokrito?! hypocrite in english.

likas lang ba ito sa isang tao?

san ito nanggaling? pano naging ganito ang tao?

mapapagkatiwalaan mo ba ang isang taong ganon? hindi, diba?

bakit pa ko nagtitiyaga sa ganong tao?

eh yun nga. naging magkaibigan din kami.

ganito lang ba talaga kahirap ang buhay?

ang dami kong natutuklasan, mahirap na magtiwala kung kani-kanino lang para ishare.

haay. ang buhay nga naman. kaya yoko na nang nagiisip eh. kung ano-ano ang mga nagiging kuro-kuro ko. haha. kelan kaya maiintindihan ang buhay?

....

2005-08-22T22:01:00.000+08:00

lecheng sipon to.. inuubo na rin ako. hmph!

bakit kaya ganun? seryoso nanaman to, baka manibago ka.

2005-08-21T17:50:00.000+08:00

bakit kaya ganun? lagi nalang ako. may mali ba sakin? ewan ko. hindi ko nga alam eh. bakit laging pag sinabing "bahala ka.", tapos ginawa mo plano mo, galit sayo. kailangan bang ganito nalang lagi?

teka. napaisip ako. ilang taon na ba ako? 20. wala nang "-teen". in short, di nako bata. pero bakit ganon? parang bata parin turing nila sakin?

bakit ganon? di ko parin magawa gusto kong gawin. di ko mailabas yung tunay kong pagkatao. bakit? kasi may pumipigil. sino? mmmm. isipin niyo nalang. andami-daming pagkakataon na sinayang. andami-daming panahon na isinantabi lang. andami-daming maaring magawa na binali-wala. bakit? dahil sa.... um! yun na.

bakit kaya? kahit sa sarili kong pamilya (hala ayan na!) di ko feel na kasama ako. di ko feel na parte ako. di ko tlga feel. sana... haay. sa susunod ko nlng sasabihin. andaming pagkakataon na pinagisipan at pinagplanuhan ko nang lumayas dito sa bahay. sobrang dami. mula pa nung bata pa ako. may nabasa akong libro, si john grisham yung nagsulat. tungkol sa isang tao na pinamukhang namatay siya, pero nagiba ng pagkatao... at nagtangay ng $90m. ngayon naisip ko, pano kaya kung ganon din gawin ko. kunwari namatay nako, pero sa totoo, mawawala lang ako bilang ethel. wala nang ethel, thellybelles, thellybelly, thellicious, thelthel, jet, etot. pano kaya yon? may makakamiss ba sken? may makakaalala ba sken? may makakaramdam ba na wala na ako? ewan. basta. pag nagkaron ako ng pagkakataon na ganon... ay, ewan. diko lam kung magagawa ko nga.

hay. kung ang buhay nga ay sadyang napakadaling intindihin. katulad nga ng sagot ko sa isang survey sa friendster, ang tanong, "life is..?" ang sagot ko: "a mystery, sometimes you think that you've understood it, but then again, maybe you haven't." haaaaay.

take me away. please.

2005-08-16T19:56:00.000+08:00

Panalangin - APO Hiking Society

Panalangin ko sa habang buhay
Makapiling ka Makasama ka
Yan ang panalangin ko
At hindi papayag ang pusong ito
Mawala ka sa 'king piling
Mahal ko iyong dinggin

Wala nang iba pang mas mahalaga
Sa tamis na dulot ng pag-ibig natin dal'wa
At sana nama'y makikinig ka
Kapag aking sabihing minamahal kita

Panalangin ko sa habang buhay
Makapiling ka Makasama ka
Yan ang panalangin ko
At hindi papayag ang pusong ito
Mawala ka sa 'king piling
Mahal ko iyong dinggin

Wala nang iba pang mas mahalaga
Sa tamis na dulot ng pag-ibig natin dal'wa
At sana nama'y makikinig ka
Kapag aking sabihing minamahal kita

Panalangin ko sa habang buhay
Makapiling ka Makasama ka
Yan ang panalangin ko
At hindi papayag ang pusong ito
Mawala ka sa 'king piling
Mahal ko iyong dinggin

Panalangin ko sa habang buhay
Makapiling ka Makasama ka
Yan ang panalangin ko
At hindi papayag ang pusong ito
Mawala ka sa 'king piling
Mahal ko iyong dinggin

Panalangin ko sa habang buhay
Makapiling ka Makasama ka
Yan ang panalangin ko

source: http://www.lyricsdownload.com/apo-hiking-society-panalangin-lyrics.html

kahit na paulit ulit lang ang kanta, oks lang. kung kailangan paulit ulit, oks lang. at least naeemphasize. kelan ko kaya magagawang masabi ang kailangan kong sabihin?

ouch men...

2005-08-15T20:03:00.000+08:00

*minsan lang magseryoso.. pagbigyan niyo pagddrama ko...*
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kahit na sabihin kong masakit, wala naman ako magagawa. bakit? wala naman ako karapatan eh. sino ba ko? kaya kahit na ilan beses kong sabihin sa iba na nakapag 'move on' nako, hindi ko kayang i-deny sa sarili kong kahit papaano, masakit eh. kung ikaw ba naman kwentuhan kung sino gusto niyang pormahan diba? ouch men. alam ko minsan nagpapakamanhid nako, pero di naman ako bato. alam kong wala akong karapatan magdrama, pero... kailangan ko lang talaga ilabas ito. hindi ko na kakayanin eh. di naman ako si superman (or girl, for that matter). tao ako, nakakaranas din ng mga ganitong problema sa buhay. haaay.

lecheng buhay to. tama ka, sir flo. bakit pa kaya nagevolve ang tao? leche.

isang malaking....

2005-08-11T21:53:00.000+08:00

SALAMAT!

sa lahat ng nageffort gumising ng maaga kanina... :D salamat sa lahat!!! *mmmmmwah! you're da best!*

hala!

2005-08-09T20:14:00.000+08:00

dalawang tulog nalang!!!!!

BIRTHDAY KO NA!!! shet! tatanda nako!

isang hirit bago matulog.....

2005-08-08T22:17:00.000+08:00

ang daming mga pangyayari ang hindi ko ineexpect na mangyari. sino ba naman ako para makontrol ang mga pangyayari na itinatalaga ng tadhana... ang pwede ko lamang gawin ay tanggapin ito at gamitin sa pinaka-mabuting panahon.

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sino ba naman ang makakapagsabi na nakakamiss din pala sila? siguro kasi nasanay na ako na isang taon mahigit na ang naging pagsasama namin - mula pa nung ako'y naging kadete hanggang ngayon. parang ang dami na nangyari na hindi talaga mapapalitan ng kung ano pa man.

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madaming alala ang naitatag magmula non. hinding hindi ko makakalimutan ang mga yon. at para don, salamat.. salamat ng madami. hindi pa sapat ang paggawa namin ng video para sa inyo.

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kung saan man hahantong ang naging pagsasama natin, isasaalang-alang ko na lang uli ito sa tadhana...

right back at'cha

2005-07-28T22:05:00.000+08:00

right back at'cha!

14 days to go!!!

gift ko ah.. :D

everything aside....

2005-07-27T19:43:00.000+08:00

COUNTDOWN ULI!!!

15 days to go!!! birthday ko na!!! yeah!

no comment

2005-07-27T16:17:00.000+08:00

basta, bahala na kung ano man ang mangyayari sa mga susunod na araw. basta ako, nasabi ko na kailangan kong sabihin. period. bahala ka na kung ano gusto mong mangyari. sino ba ko para kumontra di ba?

eto naman ang akin

2005-07-26T23:22:00.000+08:00

again, i say... what was the sole basis of becoming friends? you have never answered that. why? you never even gave me a chance to ask that question.

sana sinabi ng maaga. hmm.. i did. i don't know what you understood by "hindi pwede."

yeah, we talked about that, and yeah, we said, nothing's gonna change. BUT... have you given thought that maybe, YOU were still the one who wouldn't stop? I'm going to say this OVER and OVER again: I DIDN'T MEAN ANYTHING WITH THAT JOKE. i repeat: wala akong gustong ipahiwatig.

yeah. you could say it on the 'net, but you couldn't get yourself to reply to a single text message about the same damn subject. fine.

crap...

2005-07-24T20:17:00.000+08:00

kapag tinopak nga naman.. kung ano ano ang nagagawa...

~
why can't people accept the fact that sometimes, you just want to be friends... that sometimes, not everyone is willing to adapt to you... that sometimes, there are more things in life that you normally don't know about... that sometimes, life isn't all what it seems.

~
there are a lot of reasons why we can't understand our mere existence. even i, for one, cannot comprehend why on earth am i still living and breathing to this day. as religion would teach it, we have put here on earth for a reason. that reason was given by the Creator. but have we asked ourselves what EXACTLY is our purpose on earth? sigh.

~
everybody knows that nobody can live alone. that's why God created friends, colleagues and family. But, let's focus more on FRIENDS. Friends are there to help and support you, to have fun with, to share things with, to kid around with. There are times when friends are supposed to be taken seriously, but there are also times when friends are not... just like in the real world - it should be taken seriously, but then, not everything should be taken seriously. Friends are around to joke with, magkapikunan, pero eventually, friends patch things up with each other and go on living as if those simple arguments never happened at all. Friendship is one of the most valuable treasures that would never be replaceable by money or material things.

but before all that, there is this matter of how you got to be friends in the first place. because sometimes, there are other reasons why you become friends. there's (1) you like the person, so you befriend that person or (2)you're already good friends with that person, that's why you began to like that person more. sometimes, or even, oftentimes, you begin to wonder..... and you begin to ask yourself what is the answer, knowing that you, alone, cannot. It lies on the person you call friend.

a lot of other questions follow with that. it doesn't end with that. what is important, that certain issues get resolved and lines are cleared.

I, for one, have done everything in my power to do my part. It is now time to do yours.

2005-07-24T19:03:00.000+08:00

sana lagi nalang ganito: serene and peaceful... parang wala kang proproblemahin...

dahil walang magawa kanina sa kotse sa the fort....

2005-07-03T19:30:00.000+08:00

o di ba? halatang galing kotse... bwahahahahahaha

Flying V/Filoil Ultimate Showdown - ADMU-DLSU Classics

2005-07-02T19:58:00.000+08:00

DLSU-Legends 79
ADMU - Legends 70

DLSU-All Stars 84
ADMU-All Stars 73

hehe... panalo DLSU all the way.... woohooooo! :D

ala lang....

2005-07-01T06:31:00.000+08:00

haay.. sana mura lang diyan sa amanpulo... para pwede halos araw araw anjan... ala lang... para makatakas sa gulo ng buhay dito sa maynila....

countdown ulit!!!

2005-07-01T06:30:00.000+08:00

41 days to go!!!!!

haloooooo....

2005-06-29T20:45:00.000+08:00

la lang... heller lang... :D

countdown...=D

2005-06-25T19:50:00.000+08:00

47 days to go before my birthday!!! gift! gift! gift! =D hahahaha

.....

2005-06-24T20:08:00.000+08:00

48 days to go birthday ko na!!!! gift ko ah.. :D

ayyyy.... ahahahaha

2005-06-17T23:10:00.000+08:00

*hindi pala nagkaroon ng german measles si kate.. sadyang allergy lang ata yon... sus... pinakaba pa at pinaparanoid pa kmi...*

anyhooo... grabe... nakakaistress tong mga pangyayaring to. ano, kamo? secret. akin lang yon.. :D hehe...

nga pala... lam ko na may taong laging nagbabasa neto... para sayo: isang malaking HELLER! ahahaha... cguro naman alam mo kung sino ka at hindi ko na babanggitin kung sino ka ah.. :D hehehe

-->55 days to go birthday ko na!!!! hahaha gift ko ah? :D<--

hay naku... eto nanaman...

2005-06-07T21:39:00.000+08:00

sobrang hectic netong past 2 days ah. effort talaga. baket? kasi SCReW ngayon. anong SCReW, kamo? Student Council Recruitment Week. at dahil VP-Publicity ako ng OSec (ano uli? Office of the Executive Secretary. otey?), kailangan madaming gawin.. duh. publicity nga eh. kailangan bumenta OSec.. mwahaha. eh kaso lang nasasapawan kami ng Santugon. katabi kasi namin eh. no choice. (pero hindi ako nagcocomplain...) hindi ko pa tuloy nababayaran ung para sa G&W (Green & White - ito'y aming yearbook. huha!) ko... timing pa na nagkaroon ng German Measles si Kate... yikes. kaya eto... mas stressed kami. AT... kailangan pang gawin yung mga ID para sa SC... kaso lang... hindi ko makita yung pinaka"layout" niya.. gets? ang kailangan ko ksing gawin ay lagyan ng pangalan ang mga ID. eh wala yung background kung san ilalagay ko yung pangalan.. di ko makita. bad trip. haay

tapos may paper pang kailangan para sa Manacom. eh di ko gets ano gusto niyang palabasin. bad trip. anyhoo.. sige dadagdagan ko nalang... madami pako kailangan gawin eh....

another one of those days....

2005-06-05T21:29:00.000+08:00

hay naku. sobrang tinatamad ako... pero may kailangan gawin eh. hehe (plugging muna)

JOIN the Office of the Executive Secretary (OSec)! sign up kayo sa booth namin from 06June-10June 2005!!!! cool to! :D game ah!

anyhooo.... tamad mode na uli ako... hay...

one of those days.....

2005-06-02T22:29:00.000+08:00

naranasan niyo na ba yung feeling na sobrang tamad ka lang sa araw na yon? as in yung parang sobrang bigat ng katawan mo na parang hindi ka na makagalaw? ganon. ganon ang feeling ko ngayong araw na ito.

dadagdagan ko pa sana ito kaso lang tinatamad talaga ako eh.......

ala lang ulit.. =D

2005-05-28T20:44:00.000+08:00

Come Get Some
Rooster

Baby it don't matter
Anyone can see the signs,
I caught you looking over,
With just a little bit of a smile,
You tell him that you love him
While i'm running through your mind
Cos i know that you know, your cover will blow,
Its only a matter of time,

It's not my style to try and cheat and lie,
why do you sanctify something thats already died
I've got something that'll bring you alive...

[Chorus]Are you gonna shout it from the rooftops honey,
tell me i'm the only one?
kick it to the gun baby don't stop running,
tell me how you gonna come get some
Did you ever ask yourself the question
Where the hell did i go wrong
cos you know baby fool, i'll be waiting for you,
tell me how your gonna come, come, come get some!

All those words your wasting
Try to tell yourself you need more time,
Whats the point in faking
When you know you'll never make it right
You say your head is blurry, but i can't get you out of mine,
i don't mean to cause pressure but i just can't let you
go home while your living this lie

It's not my style to let this pass me by
why do you scentify something thats already died
I've got something that'll bring you alive...

[Repeat Chorus]

push down and baby,
leapt out in fear,
freaked out and shakin'
just breaking for you, (breaking for you)f
reaked out and pacing,
cant go on like this forever

[Repeat Chorus]

--> astig yung kanta di ba? =D nga pala... lyrics from: http://www.musicfactory2.co.uk/Lyrics/Rock/Rooster/Comegetsome.html

yeah, right.

2005-05-27T23:08:00.000+08:00

You Are Bold And Brave

But daring? Not usually?

You tend to like to make calculated risks.

So while you may not be base jumping any time soon...

You are up for whatever's new and (a little) exciting!

How Daring Are You?

2005-05-27T23:02:00.000+08:00

Star Wars Horoscope for Leo

You add a whole new meaning to self-assurance.
You are a nurturing person with great physical strength.
Like many Leos, you will see that your mission for good is completed.
You are very optimistic about the future.

Star wars character you are most like: Princess Leia

What is Your Star Wars Horoscope?

ala lang..

2005-05-26T20:12:00.000+08:00

You & Me
Lifehouse

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
Nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't why I can't keep my eyes off you

Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of

You and me and all of the people
With nothing to do nothin to prove and
It's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive

---> wala lang... gusto ko lang yung song =D

ano masasabi ko sa araw na ito? it sucks! >:[

2005-05-24T21:19:00.000+08:00

grabe. ngayon ko lang na realize na sobrang dami na palang hipokrito sa mundong kinagagalawan ko. as in. sobrang manhid, sobrang walang malasakit sa mga taong inaasahan niya. grabe. hindi ko inakala na that person would stoop that low. sobrang nakakawala ng respeto - hindi lang dahil may posisyon xa pero as a person as well. grabe. that person is the epitome of hypocrisy. as in grabe xa magsalita tungkol sa isang bagay tapos xa ang UNANG UNANG tatalikod sa mga sinabi niyang yon at gagawin ang exact opposite ng pinagsasabi niya. o di ba? sobrang hipokrito.

the sad thing is, hindi lang kasi xa yung apektado. buti sana kung xa lang eh.. kaso lang hindi naman eh. that's the thing with barkadas. even though the barkada tries its best to uphold its integrity, yung mga taong akala mong sila ang magdedefend ng integrity na yon ang unang sumisira non. ang hirap pa don eh lahat ng taong kasali sa barks na yon damay. bad trip. peste.

take "Hypo" for example. kala mo kung sinong napakarangal na tao. ok lang siguro kung sa barkada niya lang ginagawa eh. eh kaso lang dinadala pa niya sa org niya. uphold this, uphold that. pero ano nangyayari ngayon? tinatalikuran niya yang mga sinasabi niyang uphold this uphold that. anak ng jueteng... may prinsipyo daw xang tao. ano yung prinsipyong yon? kagaguhan? katangahan?

isa pang nakakabad trip eh walang malasakit si "Hypo" sa mga miyembro niya. kaya nawawalan na ng gana mga miyembro niya hindi pa niya alam kung bakit.

haay... hypocrisy. it exists everywhere. argh!

first day (funk) =D

2005-05-23T22:21:00.000+08:00

so.... today was the first day of school... and... it was interesting... :D

mai, mandz... i think you know what i'm talking about.. :D but don't worry, i won't put a single word about what we've talked about here. mamatay silang nagbabasa sa suspense.. ;P haha

anyhooo...

shyet ang daming frosh nanaman na nagcloclog up ng SJ Walk! ambabagal pa maglakad... nakakinis.. i know, i know, pagbigyan, first day nila as frosh, nawawala wala pa sila sa campus pero di ba... sana binibilisan maglakad!!!! siguro may klase yung mga naglalakad sa likod nila..

wala lang... dugtungan ko nalang bukas or sometime... :D

yey!

2005-05-22T19:27:00.000+08:00

papasukan na bukas! hehe weird, alam ko pero kasi naman ano... :D wala nako magawa dito sa bahay!!!! gusto ko na pumasok!!! hehe :D

paano kung...

2005-05-20T22:28:00.000+08:00

minsan sa araw ng isang tao hindi mo maiiwasan na magisip ng mga bagay na minsan ay hindi mo masasagot. mga hypothetical o rhetorical questions, ika nga. yung mga tanong na minsan nama'y alam mo na yung sagot ayaw mo lang tanggapin. mas mahirap yon. etong mga tanong na tinutukoy ko yung tipong "paano kung..." na tanong. in english, "what if..." at titiyakin ko sa inyo na sasakit ang ulo niyo kakaisip ng mga sagot na alam mong hindi naman totoo...

katulad ng mga ito: pero sa pagkakataong ito, haharapin ko ang mga tanong kong to. may sagot ako. hahaha.

paano kung hindi ako bumagsak, ano? -> nangyari na ang nangyari. tama na sa pagpapantasya. wala ka na magagawa don...

paano kung nagofficer ako? -> haaaaaaaaaay naku. alam kong HINDI talaga mangayayari yan, ever. dati pa. as in. at isa pa. masaya nakong nahihiritan yung mga naging officer ko eh. bakit pa ko magpapaunder sa kanila di ba? haha. (hi sir! alam kong binabasa mo to. ble! =P)

paano kung nag-UST ako? -> gragraduate na ko in 4 terms. kailangan ko pa bang isipin yan? payn. kung nag-UST ako 2 taon pa. baka nga 3. eh sa DLSU? 4 terms. hopefully.

sample lang yan. gets nio naman na siguro mga pinagsasabi ko di ba? huwag mong sabihin na hindi mo pa nararanasan yan. abnormal ka siguro.

3 tulog nalang pasukan na. gusto ko na pumasok. bakit? dahil may allowance na uli ako. hooray! :D

nga pala... gusto ko lang mag-HI! sa mga nagbabasa. kilala nio naman siguro kung sino kau di ba? wala lang.. :D

after a looooooong time.... =D

2005-05-19T22:52:00.000+08:00

after a loooong time nagkasama sama na rin kami ng mga kabarkada ko.. ang tagal nanamin kasing hindi nagkikita kita.. and i mean yung kumpleto kami ah. pero yung orig na plano eh manonood ng sine. buti pa sina kuya pj napanood na yung star wars episode 3:revenge of the sith. wala lang gusto ko kumpleto yung title. haha. shet. gusto ko na panoorin yon. kelan kaya ako makakanood?

owel. o di ba nga matagal na kami hindi nagkikita kita? edi malamang madaming kwento nanaman di ba? so imbes na manuod ng sine nagkwentuhan nalang kami. mas masaya, tipid pa. :D hehe di ko na nga matandaan kelan kami huling nagkasamang kumpleto. last year? o last last? ewan ko. basta matagal na, hindi ko na nga maalala eh.

siguro pag pumasok na ko mas hahaba mga entries ko dito ano? ewan. parang ambabaw ng mga sinusulat ko dito ngayon eh. sa tingin niyo ba pag nastress na ko eh mas lalalim ang mga entries ko dito? comments are very much welcomed here. :D click nio lang yung comments na link. wag na kayo mahiya. hehe. di naman ako magagalit eh. di naman ako gaganti. pramis.

gusto ko na pumasok. gusto ko na ng allowance ko.

bow.

ay naku

2005-05-15T18:33:00.000+08:00

hay naku... kakapanuod lag namin ng sine kanina... at ang pinanuod namin ay ang "In Good Company"... maganda sha kung maganda pero wala lang.. may mga parts na mejo boring at mejo nakakawalang gana pero over all maganda xa.. :D o di ba parang may review narin dito sa blog ko? ahahahaha

parang gusto ko na talaga pumasok...

ui may improvement sa pagdridrive ko ah... pwede na ata dalhin sa 'skwela... :D

wala lang... (",)

hmmmmm...

2005-05-13T21:29:00.000+08:00

hmmmm....hala nakahalungkat ako ng mga tula ko dati... gusto nio ng sample? :D ehehehe ayaw nio? wala parin kayo magagawa.. blog ko to... ahahahaha joke lang... :D eto:

sa isang tingin
by ethel tee (with help from erica salcedo, cathy fernandez, nina celso)

sa isang tingin
ako'y natulala
sa kagandahang
aking nakita

sa iyong ngiti
ako'y namangha
parang diamanteng
kumukuti-kutitap

sa isang galaw
ako'y namamanglaw
ngunit kung ika'y makita
ang araw ay sisigla

sa isang sulyap
biglang nawala
mga ala-alang
pinagkaingat-ingatan

*konting background sa tulang ito... hehe... second year high school ko pa yan naisulat... kailangan ksi para sa literature subject namin... eh mejo yung mga panahon na iyon naeenganyo ako magsulat ng tula... ngayon mejo tinatamad ako at hindi ako natatamaan ng "creative juices" para makapagsulat... hehe... katulad ng sinabi ko sa itaas, nahalungkat ko nalang uli ito... :D harhar

ahahahahahaha

2005-05-12T19:33:00.000+08:00

haha... wala lang...
~
grabe... ngayon nalang uli ako nagdrive... shiyet... kala ko kaya ko.. nanigas yung wrists ko... hehe.. mejo two years din naman ako nagstop mag drive ksi eh... ever since nung... basta. akin nalang yon... nakakahiya eh.. :D pero it was nice to actually drive again...
~
lapit na talaga pasukan... 10 days nalang...

=D

haaaayyyy..

2005-05-10T20:56:00.000+08:00

it feels as though summer just started, and now it seems like it's about to end...
well actually we have 13 more days to go before school starts and it's as if those days are going by sooooo fast... i don't know...
~
alam niyo yung feeling na gusto mo na pumasok pero ayaw mo pang magaral? ganyan... ganyan ang nafefeel ko ngayon... ayos noh? sir flores, tama ka nga. bakit pa nagevolve ang tao? bakit kailangan nilang magisip? hala... natutulad nako sa utak mo... :P

haha

2005-05-10T20:38:00.000+08:00

haha makiuso din.. :P

ahhhhh...

just stopping by to say...

my throat is starting to sore

it's going to be a quiet night

totally unacceptable

the incident in the bathroom

another year...

it's been a while...

alrighty. first post for the new year ( and it's a long one!)

haaaaaaay NAKO

...bwahahahaha...

it's morphin' time!

blurbs

you ever feel one of those days....

hah!

...back from palawan...

sankapa?!

all hail king booker??? i don't think so.

dahil may bagyong dumaan...

what a day...

this past week...

since i have nothing else to do...

...

i CAN'T believe this!!!

*sigh*

been thinking....

HAHAHAHAHA....

wala lang...

AAAAAAHHHHH!!!!

while waiting for my next class...

naiinis ako.

ubreak ngayon. at wala ako magawa. kaya eto.

makalipas ang isang linggong pagpasok...

matagal tagal ko ding hindi nagawa to

woooooooo!!! =D

while waiting for the video on you tube to load....

because i'm soooooo bored...

its soooooo hoootttttt... rarr!

*wala akong maisip na magandang title eh*

konting tiis nalaaaang....

a 'lil of this, a 'lil of that....

hmmmm...

been thinkin....

*sigh*

happy new year!!!! hehe =P

*sigh*

rock n relief

hay nako...

STRESS!!

*sigh*

geddemit!!

haaaaaaaaaaaay....

hmmmmm...

hay nakoooooooo....

argh. ayoko na ng ganito...

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!

a day for discoveries... ahahahay!

....

bakit kaya ganun? seryoso nanaman to, baka manibago ka.

ouch men...

isang malaking....

hala!

isang hirit bago matulog.....

right back at'cha

everything aside....

no comment

eto naman ang akin

crap...

dahil walang magawa kanina sa kotse sa the fort....

Flying V/Filoil Ultimate Showdown - ADMU-DLSU Classics

ala lang....

countdown ulit!!!

haloooooo....

countdown...=D

.....

ayyyy.... ahahahaha

hay naku... eto nanaman...

another one of those days....

one of those days.....

ala lang ulit.. =D

sigh

wala akong maisip na magandang title eh

sigh

sigh

sigh