all hail king booker??? i don't think so.

23 October 2006

last saturday was a blast, minus the fireworks. i went to watch the WWE Smackdown! Survivor Series Tour scheduled last saturday with my friend and can i just say that it rocked!! i should've saved more money to buy two tickets... one for each show, or i should've saved enough to be seated ringside. *sigh* i wish WWE would have more live events here... or better yet, i could go work for WWE (Mr. McMahon? Anybody?). anyway...

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i can't remember exactly how many times i've said that i want to be in law enforcement. i'm currently on a CSI marathon, and the more i watch, the more i want to be a CSI. heck, i'm even having dreams of being a CSI. maybe i've watched one episode too many in this marathon (take note: i'm barely into the fourth season), or maybe it's just so damn interesting to watch. why didn't CSI become popular when i was still in high school? maybe then i would've gotten into a degree program that could be close to becoming a CSI. *sigh* but, i'm keeping my options open. i also want to work for the FBI. yup. like i said, law enforcement. just not here in the philippines.

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i'm going to be graduating in a couple of months. realistically, i haven't any clue where i would work. but ideally? i've already listed three above: WWE, CSI, and the FBI. nice, huh. but seriously, i really, really want to work in the WWE and the FBI. i swear. give me the chance and the opportunity, i'll do it! (so if anybody out there reads this...)

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i better go back to my CSI marathon.

dahil may bagyong dumaan...

01 October 2006

hala! unang araw ng buwan may entry ako.. haha... pagbigyan... ngayon lang uli nagkaroon ng kuryente, malamang ngayon lang uli nagka-internet... kaya eto...

pano ba naman, nung wednesday ng gabi, alam ko na na may bagyo na dadating. paggising ko kinabukasan, nalaman kong suspendido lahat ng klase, at signal #3 na yung bagyo... at dadaan siya ng metro manila. ayos, diba? bagyo... eh biglang nagyaya nanay ko na kumuha ng pinatahi sa jennmar... patay tayo dun... isipin mo, signal number 3 na yung bagyo. imbes na nasa bahay ako, ayun, sumugod kami ng quezon city (at taga pasig ako, sankapa?!) para lang kunin yung mga pinatahi na pwedeng pwede naman magintay ng hanggang tapos na ang bagyo, diba? hindeeee. kailangan na daw kunin yon. ehdi yon. sino ba naman kami para kumontra sa kanya, diba? ehdi ayun. sugod. at ayun din, kalakasan ng bagyo, nasa lansangan kami. hinarap namin ang malalakas na hangin at mga tumutumbang puno at poste ng meralco at pldt. shiyet. tapos brownout pa. malamang. madami ngang naputol na kable ng kuryente eh. kaya ayun. tatlong araw na walang kuryente. ayus.

sana kung hindi lang yon eh. talagang thursday ng tanghali lang umulan ng malakas. as in. pagdating ng gabi ng thursday at nung friday, ala na. papunta nang china ung bagyo. ayos ano? kaya ayun. ang iniwan, sandamakmak na nagsitumbahang puno, poste ng meralco at billboard. oo, billboard. sa kinadami-daming billboard sa edsa at south super high-way, ilan nalang ata ang natirang nakatayo. kaya ayun. trapik. nanaman. haaay. buhay nga naman ano?

at wag ka. diba nga walang kuryente, malamang walang pambomba ng tubig. in short, walang kuryente, walang tubig na galin sa deep well. buti nalang may back-up kami. nawasa. yung lola ko, galit sa tubig yon. kahit wala nang tubig, magaaksaya parin. kaya nung brownout, ayun. nadiskubre yung nawasa. hala, hindi na tinayuan yung gripo sa garahe namin. galing-galing.

pero... (nyak... realization kuno) napaisip din ako eh. kailangan pa ba ng bagyo para mapagisip ang mga tao kung ano na ang ginagawa nilang paglapastangan sa kalikasan (nakanangpuch anlalim)? kailangan pa ba ng bagyong kasing lakas ni milenyo (oo, yan ang pangalan nung bagyo) para maisip natin na sadyang napakadaming billboard sa edsa sa south super high-way na napaka-delikado sa mga motorista (ayun. may nahulog na billboard. may nabagsakan, patay.)? kailangan pa ba na madaming masalanta para malaman ng tao kung gaano kahalaga ang buhay? sa tingin ko hindi eh, pero anong nangyari? kinailangan pang paaalalahanan tayo. buti na lang bagyo lang. pano pa kaya kung lindol? o kaya yung sunod-sunod na pagputok ng bulkan? o kaya bigla nalang lumubog ang buong pilipinas? aantayin pa ba natin yon para magbago??? san man nanggaling tong mga tanong kong to, hindi ko rin alam eh. basta pumasok nalang siya sa utak ko. pero may point ako diba? diba?

narealize ko din kung gaano na tayo dumedepende sa bagong teknolohiya. at dahil nawalan ng kuryente, ayun. walang tv, walang cable, walang internet. naubos ang charge ng mga cellphone. walang mailagay sa ref at freezer. walang microwave. at dahil madami nang gumagamit ng electric stove grill, madaming hindi makapagluto ng pagkaen. tama ba yan? kumbaga ba, nung tatlong araw na nagbrownout, parang huminto ang pagikot ng mundo natin. yung tipong kakaen na ng hapunan bago pa mawala ang liwanag, tpos maagang magsisitulog, tapos ang gising eh hindi lalagpas ng pagbuka ng liwanag. kung ang bagong teknolohiya na ang nagpapatakbo ng buhay mo ngayon, bigla ka nalang mapapagisip: paano ako nabuhay noong hindi pa uso ang cable, cellphone at internet? hindi ba? natanong ko na sarili ko niyan. sigurado ako naitanong mo na rin yan sa sarili mo. hindi ba? wag mo na i-deny...

haay. sana hanggang ganito nalang ang mangyari. eh kaso lang, meron nanaman isa pang bagyong padating eh. sana lang talaga na hindi na dumaan ng metro manila. hindi ko na talaga makakayanan kung walang kuryente eh. inaamin ko, hindi talaga ako mabubuhay kung babalik ako sa panahon na wala tong mga to. pramis.

naka na! ang haba ng post kong ito. yaaan. yan ang nagagawa kapag tatlong araw kang nawalan ng kuryente. kapag tatlong araw kang nakatunganga sa gabi, binibilang ang mga gamu-gamo na umiikot sa liwanag ng kandilang hawak mo. hay nako. sa susunod na magbr-brownout, magpapacheck in ako sa hotel. at least sila, may generator. may cable pa. haha. =P

what a day...

28 September 2006

I woke up today and found out that there was a storm passing through Metro Manila... guess what the storm signal was... signal # 3!!! and my mom actually wanted to go to Quezon City (yes, in the middle of a #3 storm) just to pick up a couple of tailored clothes. So, in essence, on the way back home, it was raining hard and the winds were sooooo strong... i literally felt the wind rocking the car! it was that strong! i'm not exaggerating! roads were unpassable due to numerous trees that were uprooted - my last count on the way home was 12... and my mom still doesn't want to go home... *sigh* but now the storm's on the way out of the country and school's back tomorrow...

this past week...

14 September 2006

this past week was just so... tiring.

we've started surveying for our thesis... and, for the love of all that is good, it's really not that easy!!! not to mention scary, because we need to tap into the lower classes - classes c/d/e - for our thesis and one look around the area would make you think twice for your safety. just recently we had to survey a group of 'tambays' which just made my caution meter spike up to high heavens. i wanted to run away if it weren't for this danm thesis survey. i have nothing against anything - do not misquote or get me wrong here - but sometimes i just wonder if this is going to be all worth it afterwards... maybe i have to bring a knife or a tazer next time... oh well...

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i'm going to start working on monday. (what?!) yup, you read that right. i'm going to be working. and i've always thought that the word 'work' and myself did not go in the same sentence. haha. =) anyway... at least i'll have money.. hehehe...

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to tell you honestly, i really didn't want to accept the job... because that would mean that i would have to stay longer hours in our office (i may not have said earlier, but i'm going to be working at our office.. hehe), and it means more encounters of the third kind. well not exactly. hahah. i just want peace... can anybody give me that, please?

since i have nothing else to do...

30 august 2006

it's another boring day of doing nothing... i know sometimes doing nothing is very welcoming, especially coming from a long week of stress from projects and exams, but other times, doing nothing is exactly why it's boring... just like today... just like it was yesterday... *sigh* at least tomorrow i get to go to school, only because it's our course card distribution... i practically know i've passed all my subjects, except my thesis, since technically, we wouldn't get any grade yet... anyway...

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since i have nothing better to do than "waste" my time watching tv and surfing the 'net (you know what, even the 'net gets boring nowadays...), i've been watching stuff that on channels that i won't normally even think twice to watch... and it's turned out to be pretty interesting... hehehe...

i've been watching a show called "sue thomas, f.b.eye", which is about a deaf FBI agent... it's actually interesting to watch, especially when you have to hot guys there. yes, i said hot. haha. this is the first and the last time i'm going to say hot guys. argh. anyway... the storyline's fascinating in such a way that sue thomas cannot hear anything, but aided with her hearing dog, Levi, she makes it through everyday life ok. Her contribution to the FBI is that she could read lips, which makes undercover and "eavesdropping" a whole lot unconscpicous and easier.

another show that i'm looking forward every week is the newest season of Numb3rs.. it's so fascinating to know that math (very, very advanced math, i must add) could actually aid in solving crime... Not to mention it aids the FBI (yes, the FBI again) to actually solve exceptionally hard cases... and take note, these are actually inspired by true events...

there's been this show that i've been following that just went off-air all of a sudden has returned!!!! woohoooo!! thank you crime/suspense! Bones is back!! yeah!! just hope that it's the latest season... =)

anyway, it's already "sue thomas, f.b.eye" so i'll have to end this...

...

23 august 2006

one down...

i have just taken the intreco final exam yesterday and i must say that i felt confident enough about that exam... i just hope that my feeling is correct, though. i really, really, really hope that i pass this dang freakin' subject. it would just suck if i fail this subject... it's going to be my only subject for the next term if i fail this one... *sigh*

one more to go...

it's this freakin' website for interac. our deadline for this project is on the 28th... and i still haven't quite finished it yet... hehe... lack of motivation, you know? i promise i'll finish this by monday... i have to... hehe. i don't even care what my grade will be... i just want it to be done...

something else...

thesis defense are scheduled tomorrow and on friday. i have mixed feelings about this one... i want to watch, but at the same time i don't... i mean, since we're deferred, i want to watch to see how it will go down, but i don't because it's so frustrating, knowing that we could've been one of those people who would defend our thesis... it may seem that i've accepted the fact that we're deferred, but actually, i'm still a little bit bitter about it... i mean, if it weren't for our *cough*beloved*coughcoughcough* mentor, then we would've been one of those defending our thesis... but then again, i had the feeling from the start that we couldn't have finished on time, either... *sigh* oh well...

i CAN'T believe this!!!

21 August 2006

here we have no classes again... because of a freakin' holiday... anyways...

the biggest event of the year just happened. what am i talking about? i'm talking about summerslam. a lot of people may have seen the commercials in jack tv and etc... and i just checked with wwe.com about the results... and i CANNOT believe what happened. seriously. i mean, come on! i know randy orton was asking for it and dx prevailed once more against the mcmahons. but "king" booker AND edge retaining their respective championships because of what? sharmell and lita (respectively)! that is not something i want to see in summerslam... gosh! it's a good thing i didn't waste money going to the pay-per-views in megamall... rip-off! argh!

anyway... i should be reviewing for my economics final exam instead of wasting my time surfing the web for the results of summerslam or even writing in this blog... but i can't help it.. my brain needs a break... i can't study anymore and i still have a lot of paperwork to do... my brain is slowly dying on me if i don't take a break... and its always the time of day that my brain automatically shuts down... i can't explain it, but yeah. anything that's academic-related, my brain shuts down at this time. *shrugs* don't know why...

what really sucks is that freakin' economics professor of mine. very high standards, left the country for a couple of weeks to go to some freaking country, left the class to two very, very inefficient subs, and expects us all to pass the freakin' course. am i the only one who sees that this is sooooo wrong?! argh...

anyway.. i gotta get back to that paper. dang it. the only thing that keeps me going is that this is all going to be over soon... i hope.

*sigh*

09 August 2006

it's 2 days before my birthday... woohoo. haha. i'm supposed to be excited and all that, since my birthday means gifts and money (haha) but honestly, i'm not. i suppose you want to know why? i really can't explain it properly; i suppose that it just comes with age. yup, that's right. age. and i'm not getting any younger.

it's actually funny 'cause before, when i was way younger, nothing seems to matter more than receiving my gifts and my birthday money. i would even go to the extent of reminding everyone that my birthday is coming up as early as june. that's how serious i was about my birthday. this time, however, i didn't quite have the same enthusiasm as before; i actually realized that my birthday was coming up at the start of the month. and by my standards, that's way late. haha. i guess what they say about people growing older: you tend to mature. 'tend' is the key word here. i'm not saying that i'm starting to get all serious and stuff; it's just that there are times that being 'carefree' and materialistic just doesn't cut it anymore. it's like it's about time that i finally have 'substance'. and i guess that's what adds to who i am.

speaking of who i am, now that i'm, let's just say, 'maturing' (hah), i just hope that nobody would try to change me into someone that they deem to be 'better'. i mean, i hope (and i'm crossing my fingers mentally as i type this) that people just accept me the way i am, and not expect me to conform to their ideals and expectations. that's what makes me unique for who i am. maybe i'll try to change a bit, you know, reach a compromise, but that's it. i won't change for someone if it means overhauling my whole personality and bending my beliefs and principles.

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i have to wait three more months before i graduate college. now, i don't know whether i'd be happy to stay another term in school, or disappointed that i'd still be dependent and won't be able to do as i please. *sigh* i guess it's a little of both, you know what i mean? i guess i'm glad (in a way, not entirely) that i'd have an extension on actually pondering what's going to happen after college; disappointed because we could've finished the freaking thesis on time if it weren't for the numerous revisions that our *cough* beloved *cough* mentor made us do.

going back on the subject of the future (that sounds a tad intimidating), almost 4 years in college and i still haven't decided what to do after graduation. my mom had asked me a couple of times this year on what i plan to do after graduation, and i immediately answered, 'bum around'. but now it got me thinking: what happens after that? i mean, i am entitled to a few weeks, or maybe months of rest after at least 17 years of studying (it's been that long?!), but after this, what then? i haven't really given it much thought, and now, i am. i would definitely want to work in the field related to my study (which is organizational communication) which means that i'd really prefer to work in the corporate environment. i've actually given it serious thought to work in the WWE corporate headquarters, but even that seems a little far-fetched. i need to find work related to media and the corporation somewhere here in the philippines, but let's face it, there are just not that much options here. i guess that's one of the reasons that many filipinos would want to work abroad.

speaking of working abroad (yes, it's the second time i've used 'speaking of'), i've been hearing or reading stuff that you know, question the nationalism of these filipinos. like what my professor in history of civilizations said, it doesn't matter where you are, or what language you use, just as long as in your heart, you still hold the philippines dear in what you do. i have to agree. although i say: being nationalistic doesn't mean you have to endure everything happening in the philippines, or you have to stubbornly stay in the country although you know that you're going to go nowhere. it's about improving your own life as well as others', and it doesn't matter how you get it (as long as it's legal ;D). being nationalistic doens't mean that you would march head on in rallies and demonstrations opposing everything taht could be opposed. it's just being 'pinoy' at heart and living 'pinoy'.

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my, my. isn't this an interesting blog entry. too many ideas cramped into so little space, so little time. haha. it's one of these rare moments where i actually make sense, or so i think. =D haha. anyway, i guess it's time to end this very long entry, my longest one yet (for the record! ha! as if i'm keeping record. haha). oh well... till my next 'serious' moment. haha

been thinking....

01 august 2006

wow! an entry on the first of the month... haha...

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i've been thinking... isn't it weird in a way why the wizarding world in harry potter have no clue about technology or technological advances? or the sciences, for that matter? i mean, what era is harry potter supposed to be living in? i'm assuming that harry lives in this century, because his uncle and aunt's place has tv, playstation, computer games, etc... why, then, hasn't the wizarding community kept up-to-date? we (that is, my cousin and I) were watching harry potter and the goblet of fire on dvd, and well, an old fashioned turntable (you get what i mean?)?? i mean, there are cds and radios and stuff like that, and i also know that muggle equipment cannot function properly inside hogwarts, but how come there aren't magical cd players or computers? wala lang. i was just thinking... why don't they have internet? i mean, they could call it the world wizarding web or something like that? *sigh* anyways....

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oh. haha. i just remembered. our thesis: deferred. haha. means i won't be graduating on october. one more term. haha. i must loooove dlsu so much that i still don't want to go. haha.

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i'm already excited. for what? the WWE SmackDown Survivor Series Tour (kailangan kumpleto. libre plugging na rin to. =D). i've already got my ticket. have you got yours??? =P

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*sigh*. my birthday's coming up... again. not that i'm against celebrating my birthday, but i'm not quite keen on the idea anymore. maybe because i'm turning 21... oh well. you get older...

HAHAHAHAHA....

21 July 2006

sobrang nakaktawa. sa sobrang nakakatawa niya, nakakabwiset na. *sigh* ang hirap talaga magpalaki ng magulang. grabe... minsan gusto nila na sabihin mo sa kanila ng maaga. pero pag sinabi mo naman, mababad trip... labo no? take this for example:

sinabi ko na nanay ko na baka deferred kami sa thesis, meaning hindi ako makakagraduate ngayong term. sinabi ko rin na factor dun yung sobrang kabagalan ng mahal naming thesis mentor. sabi niya bakit di daw namin kausapin para matapos kami agad? sabi ko ginawa na namin yon, hindi talaga aabot. edi ayun, sinabi ko na para hindi sha mashado magexpect... aba! bigla ba naman ako hindi kinausap?! ano yon?! sha pa ngayon ang may gana na mabad trip eh thesis namin yon... dugo't pawis namin ang bumuo dun, hindi ba dapat mas nakakafrustrate samin yon at dapat kami ang mabad trip?! but noooooo. siya tong nagiinarte. as if naman 100% ang suporta niya samin sa thesis na to. eh wala ngang school activity na inatendan yun eh. sori, pero kahit na isumbat niya na siya yung gumagastos para sa schooling ko, does she really think that's enough? i don't think so.

wala lang...

19 July 2006

haaay. wala ako magawa ngayon. natapos ko na yung binabasa kong libro, yung "The Last Templar". astig. gusto ko tuloy maging FBI. mwahahahaha. siguro nagtataka kayo bakit gusto ko maging FBI, at anong kinalaman nito sa "The Last Templar"... basahin niyo para malaman niyo! Nyahahahahaha!!! (nyak. dapat may royalty ako pag bumili kayo ng libro. plugging to eh. mwahahahaha!!!)

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neweiz... pupunta nga pala ang Smackdown! dito... AT MAY TICKET NA KO!!!!! wahoooooo!! excited na ako manuod ng WWE live!!!! ok, ok... alam kong october pa yon, pero grabe exagg sobrang malapit nang masold out yung event! hello?! july pa lang! feel ko nga sold out na for oct 22 eh.. hehehe... shiyet excited na ko manuod!!!! woooohoooo!!!

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haaaay... i am sooooo bored! it sucks... shiyet sana may sumamang ibang taga RAW sa Smackdown Survivor Series Tour dito... nyahahahahah wala lang... nyak mangarap daw ba? buti nalang libre mangarap...

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sana matapos na tong thesis na to. ayoko na magisip eh.

AAAAAAHHHHH!!!!

04 july 2006

the smackdown! survivor series tour will be here in manila on october 21!!!! i wanna watch!!!! aaaahhhhh!!!!!

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on another note... i want a new phone... correction... i'm buying a new phone! wooohooo!!! i can't wait! =D

while waiting for my next class...

19 June 2006

yes. it's my second post of the day... doesn't that tell you something? oh well... =P

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it's a boring day. i guess i have to come here to school tomorrow just to pass our thesis paper to our freaking thesis mentor. take note, this is the 4th week that we have been revising our thesis paper over and over again... sigh. i think that our mentor is telling us that we won't graduate by the end of this term. *i'm crossing my fingers hoping that the opposite would happen...*

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i still have 30 minutes to go till my next class... and while waiting here in the desktop lab, my blockmates are having the times of their lives in one corner of the lab. i have nothing against that, really, promise... it's just that they're waaaaay too noisy... no offense guys. it's just that i can't even hear myself think anymore. but they're great guys, i promise! =)

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are there times that you've felt that sometimes you just want time to freeze? i've felt that kind of feeling a lot of times, and sometimes, having hermione's time turner may be welcoming. it's just a scary thought of what might happen when you become slightly irresponsible with the time turner... *sigh*

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sometimes i wonder how my life would be like if i'm a boy instead of a girl... it's a scary thought, but hey, there are times when you just wonder if life was turned 360 degrees...

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i was thinking of other things to write, but i can't seem to remember.....

naiinis ako.

19 June 2006

kala ko di na ako makakaencounter ng taong sobrang kapal ng mukha... hindi pala. grabe. hindi ko inexpect na may makikilala pa ako na grabe na sa kakapalan ng mukha. as in! as if andami na niyang nagawa! argh. ayoko ng mga groupmates na ganon eh. buti sana kung yun lang eh, pero hindeeee!!! kala mo kung sinong napakagaling na miyembro hindi naman nagbibigay ng concept nung mga meetings, tpos biglang aangal kung bakit ganon yung concept na naisip... well in the first place hindi nga sha pumupunta sa meeting! wag na niyang isipin na sa kanya ko ipapaedit yung project namin... di na kami aasa sa kanya... baka lahat ng pinaghirapan namin mabale-wala lang kung iaasa lang namin sa kanya. and he better not expect that we'll give him a passable quantitative report when he has done nothing! kahit na nagbigay kami ng tasks, it doesn't mean na wala na shang ibang gagawin... the least he could've done was show some initiative that he really wants to work for the grade! kahit mageffort naman sha na tumulong! my gosh!!! grabe na ang kakapalan ng mukha... sobrang argh. tpos wala man lang effort na magtanong kung ano nangyari or something?! exagg. ngayon lang talaga.. and take note... siya tong nagmakaawa na isama sa group namin, tpos freeloader lang pala siya?! hello... asa siyang ipapafreeload namin siya noh! >:(

ubreak ngayon. at wala ako magawa. kaya eto.

07 june 2006

ubreak ngayon sa school. may program sa amphitheater. kaso lang pang frosh at hindi nako frosh... kaya eto, andito ako sa desktop lab. kaso lang... may mga epal akong katabi kanina. pakinangshyiet! kala mo kung sinong mga gwapo at kung magsalita eh parang lahat ng babae eh mahuhulog sa mga paa nila! kala mo kung sino! leche! hay nako... wala na tuloy ako maisip ngayon... bwiset!

makalipas ang isang linggong pagpasok...

29 May 2006

ngayon lang ako nakaupo at nakaisip ng mga bagay bagay na nagiba ngayong pasukan...

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wala na masyadong mga frosh na gumagala sa main campus ngayon... lahat sila nasa bagong building na... yung bagong building na 6 lang ang elevator pero mga 20 floors xa. yung building na walang id scanner. yung building na hindi pa lahat ng classroom ay may aircon. yung building na madumi ang banyo. yung building na hindi pwede pumasok ang ibang estudyante kung walang klase dun. yung bagong building na minadali para lang sa pasukang ito. hay nako. good luck nalang sa mga frosh na yan. bago nga building nila, kulang parin sa para maging "world class" ang standard. gets?

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at dahil wala maxadong frosh sa main campus ngayon, maluwag-luwag na ang mga "main thoroughfares" ng campus. ibig sabihin, pwede na nila ayusin ang sj walk. pero, ang sj walk ganyan na. kung ayusin mo yan, di na sj walk yan. oh well. kung tutuusin, may benepisyo naman kung ayusin nila ang sj walk.. ibig sabihin mas malawak na ang basketball court. nyahahaha. joke lang. ang alam ko, mawawala yung mga bench na may chess board sa konkreto sa ilalim ng puno. mababawasan nanaman ng matatambayan. **ibig sabihin, mag iiba na ng tambayan ang santugon?**

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anyway... ang saya ng schedule ko ngayon. m-w-f lang ang pasok ko... kaso lang, pumapasok parin ako ng t-th dahil sa thesis. haaaay. sana talaga matapos na yan ng mabilis. para tapos na lahat. ayoko na magaral eh. siguro magmamasters ako after two years... para at least may break di ba? hehe

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speaking of schedules... may subject ako na 1430-1530 ng m-w-f... grabe kakaiba yung prof... imaginin niyo si professor snape na mas bumaet... ayun. weird pa nga kasi naninilaw yung kamay niya...

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so ayun.. yun muna... medyo nabe-brain drain na ko eh....

matagal tagal ko ding hindi nagawa to

26 may 2006

mejo matagal tagal ko nang hindi nagawa to... ano yon? ang maglabas ng mga iba't ibang kuro-kuro at mga iniisip ko habang walang ginagawa at naglilipas ng oras. ang mga kuro-kuro ko'y pawang pagiisip ko lamang at wala akong nais patamaan. pinapangunahan ko na. baka may magbasa, tapos sobrang defensive nila at magreact eh hindi naman sila pinapatamaan. ewan ko kung bakit ganun. wala namang rason para matamaan eh... unless may ginawa sila kaya sila tinamaan. ewan. pagpasensyahan niyo na ung medyo mahaba-haba ito, medyo naipon lang yung mga iniisip ko.

anyway... magsisimula na ako.. pero para mas masaya, inisip kong i-divide ung entry na to sa iba't ibang section. (naks!)

bakit kaya?

-- may mga tao na sobrang naapektohan ng mga binabasa nila? kung ako, maapektuhan ako kung tipong pangalan ko na talaga yung nakalagay dun. as in sakto sa spelling at alam mong ikaw lang ang may pangalan na ganon na kakilala ng taong un. gets nio? kung hindi, eh... mahirap i-explain eh. ganito nalang. hindi ba't blog ito? at alam ng mga may blog na nababasa ito ng kahit sino? at maaaring gawing vague ang mga entries dito? diba? ang hindi ko maintindihan ay bakit may mga taong nagpapaapekto sa mga entries na ganito. basta ako, nagtataka lang ako. dahil di ko gets eh.

-- minsan may mga pagkakataon na sadyang hindi ka pinagbibigyan? yung parang lagi nalang ikaw ang may kasalanan? yung tipong lagi sayo ibinubungtong ang lahat ng nagagawang mali, kahit na wala kang ginagawa o kahit na siya yung gumawa ng mali? madami kasi akong kilalang ganyan eh. yung tipong ikaw ang sisisihin kung hindi nagayon sa plano nila yung ginawa nila. madalas akong mabiktima ng ganyan. hindi nalang ako nagsasalita kasi baka mabalingan uli ako ng galit. ayoko na.

-- may mga tao na talagang kakaiba magisip? yung tipong sila na ung mali, ipagigiitan parin nila na sila ung tama. hindi mo gets? yung tipong universally proven na mali talaga yung ginawa niya pero up till now pinagpipilitan nia na tama parin yung ginawa nia. irelevant na dito kung ano man ang pinagusapan or kung ano man ung sanhi nung nangyare. ung paraan lang. ung ginawa. hay nako. nakakainis yung mga taong ganito. anyway.

-- minsan parang gustong gusto mo na sumuko. parang sobrang pagod ka na sa takbo ng mundo, sa takbo ng buhay mo. yung tipong sana hindi ka nalang pinanganak. may mga pagkakataon na dumadating nalang sa buhay ng isang tao na mapapaisip ka ng ganyan. haay.

-- may mga taong sadya lamang na bastos? yung tipong parang sila lang ang taong nabubuhay sa mundo at wala na silang kusiderasyon sa ibang taong nabubuhay? para kasing dumadami yung mga kakilala kong ganyan eh. bad trip.

next section...

paano kaya?

-- kung hindi ako napanganak? ano kaya ang mangyayare sa mundo? mas masaya kaya ito kung wala ako, o mas malungkot?

-- kung bigla nalang ako naglaho na parang bula? as in yung tipong walang sabi-sabi, walang contact whatsoever, no nothing. may makaka-alala kaya saken? ano kaya mangyayari kung ganon? sasaya ba yung mga tao? lulungkot?

-- kung nakapagdesisyon akong sumuko nalang? as in yung tipong ayoko na talaga? ano na mangyayari?

-- kung ihayag ko sa lahat ng taong concerned ang lahat ng saloobin ko, kahit ano pa man ito? ano kaya gagawin nila saken?

wala na ako matanong. ayoko na magtanong. hindi rin naman nasasagot eh. nakakabadtrip.

woooooooo!!! =D

25 may 2006

it's definitely a tiring day.

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today is a thesis day. and hopefully, we would be able to finish this thesis by the end of the term. it feels like we still have a lot to do, and time's not on our side. add to that is our oh-so-lovable thesis mentor. *sigh*.

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i watched the american idol finals a while ago... it was a great show... the top 12 were also there to perform... and yeah... clay aiken and the gay dude who was clay's "number one" fan... as well as carrie underwood... and would you believe that the artist formerly known as prince (tafkap) is still alive and kicking?! (and holy... his backup singers/dancers were sooooo slim and flexible!)... anyway... i'm sooooo glad that taylor won! i mean, he might not be the greatest singer but his no one from this season could ever match his personality!

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i am so bored, even my brain is on hold. *sigh*

while waiting for the video on you tube to load....

15 May 2006

... i figured i could come up with something to post. =D hehe... well... here goes:

i still find the power rangers cool. i'm sorry for those who disagrees with me, but i grew up watching the power rangers. it's not exactly that easy just to erase it from my system. heehee ^_^*. i'm not kidding. i still watch the stuff. does anybody know where i can find the power rangers movie??? seriously.

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anyway, school is just a week away. i'm actually excited about going to school, and frankly, i'm expecting a LOT of stress. thesis 2 is on the way and we have to finish this freaking thesis by september or else. it's just that it's going to be easier that way -- not just for us, but also for all those freaking professors that are just going up our arses with this. sorry for the language. it's just that it's so frustrating.

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but enough of that. since i'm in a ranting mood, i guess i have to start with this one.

i really, really dispise people who have no consideration for others. example in point, you're the only person in the room, then suddenly somebody else comes in, you're watching a video on your own pc, then he (or she) opens his (or her) own pc then suddenly cranks up the speakers, while talking to a person on the phone, oblivious to you watching a video. of all the things that i really hate it's these kinds of people.

another thing i don't like is when people rant on you about another person, as if you can do something about it (my mother does this a lot). it's just that it's so irritating to talk about it out loud knowing that sitting there doesn't really cahnge anything. *sigh* what the heck. as if i'm not doing the same damn thing... only i'm using my blog for it. oh well.

the video finally completes its loading! i'm going to watch na! =D

because i'm soooooo bored...

05 May 2006

Only 17 days to go till the first day of classes (for me, anway)! i'm just so bored here at home for the summer, and on top of that, I HAVE NO MONEY!!! that's why i'm so looking forward to going back to school... i'm going to get my weekly allowance again! *sigh*

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either it's just me, or this summer heat is weirding me out. you know why? the only things that preoccupy my mind this summer are wrestling, power rangers, anime and being online. why is it weirding me out? well, (1) i wasn't into wrestling until recently. i remember that it was a kurt angle-john cena match. (2) power rangers?! come on... it's been, like 13 years since the first power rangers series went on air... and i was 9 years old?! come on! since then there have been numerous spin offs, like power rangers wild force, ninja storm and dino thunder - these three being the most recent (not to mention that these three were or are currently being shown on cartoon network!). (3) i've been into anime for a long time, but i have stopped following series since i stepped into college. now that this is officially a boring summer, it seems that i have resumed my old ways: watching yu yu hakusho, flame of recca and fushigi yugi with a couple of new series that i watch - detective conan and chronicle of the wings. (aren't i a little old for these?) oh well...

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*sigh* and to top it all off, i just received a text message (as of this writing) from someone that i formerly knew. if that person still reads my blog, and when that person does, i've got one thing to say. WHAT DO YOU THINK?!

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this day just ended in crap.

its soooooo hoootttttt... rarr!

21 April 2006

its so hot.

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birthday shout outs to John Cena, who turns 29 on sunday, and to Kane, who turns 39 on april 26! (even though they would probably never get to read this.) and of course, to Doreen, who turns 20 (yes, the big 2-0! =P) on April 30!!!!!!!
super belated happy birthday to Randy Orton, who turned 26 on April 1. (i know, i know. i just wanted to do those.)

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its so hot and boring i wish i was still in school. weird, huh? its just that there's nothing to do... and i'm used to doing something. there's a good thing though... i'm being able to sleep longer hours! yey!

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...see i don't even have enough to say!...

*wala akong maisip na magandang title eh*

04 April 2006

after how many weeks... naipass na rin namin ang aming thesis proposal. . pero hindi pa tapos ang lahat. meron pang webgifs at finals sa stat. konti nalang...

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matapos lang ang linggong to, masaya na ako. matapos lang ang presentation ng webgifs, matapos lang ang final exam sa stat, masayang masaya na ako. pupunta pa naman kami sa fort ilocandia sa holy week. sana naman makapagrelax kami, particularly na ako. sa sobrang dami ng ginagawa para sa term na to (lintik na thesis yan! kung di dahil sa thesis mentor namin matagal na kaming tapos!!! o well), kinakailangan ko na talagang mag-relax. haaay. kailangan huminga. (inhale, exhale.)

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*Wrestlemania 22 updates*
RAW - champion parin si john cena. at champion parin si kane at big show.
Smackdown! - talo si randy orton at si kurt angle. si rey mysterio na ung bagong world heavyweight champion. erm..

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hay. kailangan ko pang magaral. bad trip naman eh...

konting tiis nalaaaang....

02 April 2006

Wrestlemania 22 na sa US. sa 16 April pa ipapalabas dito. bad trip. pero at least... hehe =P

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konting tiis na lang. sa tuesday na pasahan namin ng thesis proposal. pasado naman na to eh. basta makaprogress sa thesis 2. (sorry thesis mates. kailangan na ksing grumadweyt eh.) newei, konting tiis nalang tlga. isang term nalang... sana lang tlga wag bumagsak ng philorl. bad trip. konti nalang tlga.....

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birthday ni randy orton kahapon. *sigh* ano na kaya nangyayari sa wrestlemania? siya na kaya ang mananalo sa kanilang 'triple threat match for the world heavyweight championship' laban kay rey mysterio at kurt angle?

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nagbbrowse ako ng 'hall of fame induction' pictures sa wwe.com... pakinangshyiet! ngayon ko lang nakita si john cena na naka suit! holy macaroni! hahahaha wla lang. kakaiba lang. lagi ksi xa naka t-shirt at 'hip hop' shorts eh. wla lang...

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gusto ko ng smackdown vs. raw 2006 na game cartridge ng PSP. pati ng harry potter. sooo... mga 6thou yon. hay. pano kya ko mkkpagipon? ideas, anyone?? =D

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till next time dudes.. rak on! nyahahahahahaha

*photos courtesy of wwe.com

a 'lil of this, a 'lil of that....

26 march 2006

i know i'm supposed to remember something connected to this date, but what the heck, i don't have to stress myself thinking about that.

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we're nearing the end of the trimester, and with that, expect that there a lot of requirements waiting to be done and deadlines nearing each day. to top it all off, our freaking thesis proposal is due on the 4th of april. nice, right? not really. for a while i've been wondering if there was a course in dlsu that didn't require to do a thesis in order to graduate, and usually people answered me that there isn't one. but guess what? last wednesday i found out that there was indeed a course that is being offered in dlsu that didn't require a thesis to graduate! guess what course that was? ISTM. information software technology management from the college of computer studies. and you know what else? it was just offered!!! geez if that had been offered during my freshman year i would've took that course! hehehe... but anyway...

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13.5 units more to go and i'm graduating, hopefully, that our thesis isn't deferred. gawd i'm going to kill our beloved thesis mentor if ever he gets us deferred. i swear.

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my brain's slowly sleeping on me. better end this now. 'nyt!

hmmmm...

01 march 2006

i feel bad. it's ash wednesday and i didn't go to mass. oh well... i'll pray later. ^_^*

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i've been thinking (again)... [i've been doing that a lot lately... it scares me!]

this time it's not so serious... hehe... =D i just caught the WWE Raw episode where John Cena and Maria fight with Edge and Lita in a match to determine who would name the special guest referee in the championship match the following week. John (yak close kami?!) and Maria won, and John got to name Mick Foley as the special guest referee. But that's not what got me thinking... looking at John and Maria battle it out with Edge and Lita, they actually look good together! hehe... yeah... look at them (go to www.wwe.com, and look at John's or Maria's page... they have photos together... go! look!) well? am i right? they do look good together... (admit it!) =P

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i'm missing the power rangers... not the kind of power rangers on cartoon network today (the wild force, and other spin-offs...) i'm missing the original (plus rocky, adam and aisha)... geez. this might sound a little geeky but i used to follow each episode! i even have the power zords (or whatever)... man...

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i have to admit... there are a lot of small fights (? not really sure of the proper terminology) happening to people. i happen to know quite a few of them... i just hope that someday all these people can put their differences aside and work together harmoniously! i know, i know... sounds a little out of hand, but it can be achieved... right?

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oh well. that's life!

been thinkin....

24 february 2006

i've just been thinking...

due to the fact that there are no classes today because of the people power anniversary wherein the people have decided to go to the streets to protest the current government (*insert sarcastic tone* thanks a lot. *end sarcastic tone*), i've been thinking that there have been indeed a lot of things that are happening in our country today. what's so disturbing with that is that it seems like the only thing that people in position focus about is the bad things that are happening. it seems to me that they're spending all the people's taxes in making those bad things worse. i just don't get it. i mean, sure, power is indeed intoxicating. whoever said that 'absolute power corrupts absolutely' is positively right. once you're in that position, you wouldn't want to give it up that easy. which is why we had our classes cancelled today; people who had nothing better to do marched onto the streets of edsa and use the concept of 'people power' to force pres. GMA to quit her post. i mean, let's face reality here. they've been trying to do that for time immemorial but have they succeeded? noooooo. so, i say that instead they waste their time rallying, they ought to just focus on their work. but, hey. it's still their choice. i'm not the one who's not earning.

anyway, enough with the politics. i just wanted to release that bit. but anyway, who's going to listen to me, right? moving on...

since i had a loooong day of doing absolutely nothing, i've begun to wonder why the heck am i now watching the WWE as if i'm some hard-core fan? i mean, up till, well, the start of 2006, i didn't give a damn care about the WWE. much more watch an episode. what happened? i can't answer my own damn question. i really don't know why, and it's bugging me. i mean, come on! *sigh* it just so happened that i was channel surfing, then i passed jack tv, which was showing an episode of either smackdown or raw, then i watched. after that, i was hooked. after 20 and a half years not watching wrestling, here i am, hooked. *damn you, wrestling gods!!! argh!!*

well... i guess that's that. (what?!) ahhh... you might be thinking why that short? well, i slept half the day, so there.... hehe =P

*sigh*

08 February 2006

this was not a happy day.

we have to submit a "new" proposal by the third reading (which, by the way, is next friday) with all the details (which was already in the proposal but we were instructed by our "loving" mentor to omit). not to mention the defense we had a while ago. i swear i was so nervous that my vision was actually shaking. literally. that's how nervous i was. and to find out that we need to submit a new proposal by the third reading, damn.

it wasn't as if that defense was the only thing that i was worried for today. we had an exam for my philorl class and damn the only bit that i can remember is our friggin defense in the afternoon! d'oh. felt that i didn't answer the questions justifiably (is there such a word?). damn. this sucks.

and to top it all off, the rotc is (and always has been) depending on me for stuff! i mean, the only job i had to do was take the pictures. i'm sorry for ranting but what happened a while ago was not exactly pleasant. i wasn't the one responsible about the reservations and stuff, and it irks me because i wasn't supposed to be stressing myself about that, and i found myself stressing about that. *sigh*. it's not that i don't want to help them, i do, i really do, but sometimes, it is a bit too much for me to handle. and mind you, i am having my thesis now, and i am technically not a part of that anymore.

in summary, this is one bloody hell day.

happy new year!!!! hehe =P

*sigh*. it's been a long time since i last posted, and that was last year! (well, technically, i last posted last december 2005, and it's already january 2006, so, my last post was technically last year already. hehehe) anyway, since it's already the new year, i have a new laptop (yey!) to use in posting! heheheh =)

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two terms (hopefully) to go! this term, i am already taking up my thesis 1, and hopefully we would be able to finish it without being deferred. i'm not used to this much free time... i officially have tuesdays free... and i'm not used to not going to school everyday! *sigh* it's weird, having spent my entire stay in la salle going to school everyday! *sigh*

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okay. officially, i am scared to death for our thesis.

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i don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing, but i'm slowly pushing a certain organization out of my system. =P maybe because i had been busy last term and i wasn't able to go there all the time, or maybe i've just started to outgrow them. somehow, a lot of things are changing now that the reality that i only have two terms left in dlsu is dawning on me. entering this new term with our thesis in mind certainly lets someone push out every other irrelevant thing out of their minds. i just wish that all turns out well this term... i wish that we would get approved at once...