you ever feel one of those days....

18Aug2007



i feel like sh*t.



there's just so many things to think about and i feel like there's nobody to talk to about these things...



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have you ever had your own mom believe someone else than you? as in really, really believe him than you? i have. i'm currently the "enemy", so to speak. i just can't believe that my mom would sink sooooo low to please that f****** sonofa*****... and use MY personal stuff to do so! kamusta naman yon, diba? tapos pag nagalit ka, ikaw ang masama.... hindi ko na alam saan ako lulugar eh... it's so freaking frustrating to be in this position... kala mo naman kung sino siya... empleyado lang namin siya. ang lakas ng loob niya na gawin yon. sino ba siya? pwede ba????



you know what i want to do to that sonofa*****? i wanna kick his sorry butt... pucha pacute pa ampotah! parang hindi daw niya alam kung ano nangyayari... upakan ko siya jan eh... gusto ko na talaga ipamukha sa kanya na ayoko talaga sa kanya... yung tipong manliliit siya sa pagkatao niya... masama man iniisip ko pero wala na kong ibang maisip na paraan eh.. nababad trip na talaga ako sa kanya...



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moving forward... (shux eternal word ng manager ko...) i'm also thinking about my current job... don't get me wrong... i love working at hsbc because of the people and the pay and the environment... but i just don't like the job itself.... how can i continue working there when i can't give my 100%? i have a point, don't i? (can i just squeeze this bit here? i havent been able to continue this post for the longest time and as of this current writing, i've officially resigned from my job!)

another thing... there's this... guy... that seems to be expressing something lately... hah... bitin? don't you just hate cliffhangers? anyway... i'm really not that sure yet with what's going on but in due time, i'll give an update...

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gosh it feels so good to have no committment at all!!! woooohoooooo!!!!

i guess that's it for now...